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NEW BLOG

2007-04-06T10:04:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : ermm...irritated?

Hey guys...I moved YET again... http://firestingerx.co.nr . hope you'll get there! :p

I've moved yet again!

2007-03-04T17:30:00.000+08:00

Mo0D :happy, grateful

my new blog: http://firestingerx.ifastnet.com/blog :)

i'm moving !

2006-09-19T12:01:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : sad

i'm moving to a new blog
CLICK HERE

jpop fever

2006-08-29T00:47:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : peace
SoNG : Blue by Utada Hikaru

the title says it all. Utada Hikaru's songs are quite captivating ah. no, no...don't get me wrong.....they juz sounds nice and pleasant to me, especialy with all those voice gymnastics that she does in the chorus parts. If you love her older songs, you will certainly fall for her new album, UltraBlue. It's released quite a while back, but heard it juz arrived in the west, so it'll be pretty new stuff for em.

so, i shall "infect" you with my *passion* and liking for J-pop (** oh no sounds like the 3 testimonials hahax) with the newly added mp3 player (bottom of the webpage - not the scrolling text). It's a simple yet simple-to-use flash player, so I'm gonna rotate songs occassionally and hope u guys will enjoy =)

hmm thought i will restart my old blogging tradition : songs rotation( as explained above) and fact of the day!!

Fact of the day : The electric discharge of an electric eel can start 50 cars !! super elec-terrifying.

bleach fever

2006-08-29T00:16:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : frustrated

it only dawned on me that today is officially last day of an illustrous JC school life when I finally cringed with fatigue gripping my legs during floorball. It was one tough and very, very enjoyable game. We played a full 2 hours match, occassionally shuffling players. all the usual collisions, high balls, tyco and nicely-crafted goals, shrieks of defeat and screams of victory (nt sure if that sounds rite haha). but haix...it's the last game...PE game, that we'll ever have in NJC (yeps..sobs..so sad)...a difference that seem so subtle yet so deep in meaning. i don't know...it may nt seem oblivious now, but it will soon enough.

there are positives though.i finally scored a hattrick. ashley could have doubled the no...but the post seemed to deny him, not the other way round. but the most fun was when me and louis were randomly teamed up with the gals...finally got to experience a new "dimension" of gameplay, and realise how good the gals really are (they're really gd!)

i felt overly fatigues only upon reaching home. mind was not in good state either, so i occupied myself with my long-lost hobby - drawing animes!! my drawing's not really that fantastic lar..but u can view them below =)

the latter was to be my new blogskin =D. but i decided that its didnt suit well to my taste. so oh well. what a waste. hope the hours of drawing can more or less improve my memory and hand. (now still numb from floorball)

after this, it's mugging time!!!

2 weeks, 2 days

2006-08-06T16:01:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : sian

yay, i've finally won the battle against the flu virus!! ( though i shouldnt be admitting now that it took me 2 weeks and 2 days to do so). it has somewhat deprived me of the newfound focus on mugging and bursts of energy that have fueled my enthusiasm in physically challenging stuff like PE and soccer, so hoping i'll do well for the post-sick recuperation. hehe. so much for the recovering part.

came across this new band that's seemingly slightly over-ambitious - and good.hmm of course it should be good, they've got tom delonge from Blink 182 and the drummer guy from the Offspring and some other guitarists from some other well-known-but-I-don't-know-one bands. nope, no more blink 182 half-naked clowning, or hilarious lyrics, nor the super energetic drums with familiar heavy electric guitar accompaniment. looks like the new band, Angels and Airwaves, is leaving the blink world to enter coldplay territory, but is stumbling along the way. the songs are nice, but half of the album don't have that 'punch'. or 'kick'. you know what i mean. anyways, I posted one of their songs here. so yep, enjoy! 'The Adventure' is one of those kind that may make your soul drift away a bit for a moment, before immersing yourself in some aura of good music.

......finally

2006-07-29T20:47:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : rejuvenated

this week has been very tough for me. what was seemingly going to be just another extra hectic week with all those mugging for biomedical quiz turned horrendous when my temp skyrocketed to 39.8 degrees over the weekends. immediate doses of medication din seem to do much, so had to stay in bed the whole weekends, and had more break later all the way to thurs (and even now, I still haven't fully recover). I still tried my best to make time though to salvage whatever I could from those thick biomed books, and I'm very glad that NJ came in 3rd overall behind (default and normal) finalists RJ and HCI...yea!!!

Biomedical quiz preps was one of a heck kind of experience. absorbing the facts (x 10 of current bio syllabus) itself was an arduous task; applying those facts esp those for anatomy etc was more than daunting. makes me rethink whether I really want to go medicine or other bio-related fields of study. but of course, passion supercedes everything when it comes to fields like life sciences, followed by the will to learn...so I will just follow my heart and do my best from now on to achieve my aims.and stop playing.and stop slacking. and start mugging.hmmmm now that reminds me of the pile of homework debt i've accumulated over the week. ahhhhhh.

world cup fever

2006-07-10T21:05:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : very jaded

I have to admit...this yr's World Cup is a blast...no wait..it should be "was",not "is". Arghhhh!! for any non-soccer-fans-turned-world-cup-spectators who think the world cup fever is over, that would mean you'll never understand some of us, the soccer fans. not that i want to degrade those under that category; it's already such a bombastic feat to get earthlings on the nerves watching teams battling for the coveted title. But...quite simply, the fever won't just fade away like that! Temperatures are still high in most fans, some scathing from the seering truth in France's defeat, me being one of them, others basking in the Azurri joy.

It may seem unoblivious that this yr's world cup is to be a major chapter in football's history, and will be talked about again and again in future "history of World Cup" programmes. Coupled with Italy's fourth title, none of this generation would forget the disgraceful yet pitiful end to Zinedine Yazid "Zizou" Zidane's otherwise super glittering career; a maestro, a genius, a immensely skillful player with trademark tricks on the pitch, and probably one of the best- or the best football player in the world. He showed the world that even the best do made mistakes; to err is human after all, and even a normally calm, cool-headed guy like him could loose his cool under provocation/spats etc and went to the extent of headbutting in brute retaliation. Despite all that, he remains as the best player in many people's eyes and deserves the golden boot award, presented to the outstanding performer of the competition, having almost single-handedly helped the Les Bleus crawl back towards the finals after returning from international retirement.

Soccer aside, played netball for PE just now and got totally whooped by the other team comprising half the class. veron, xinyi and gal gang plus the boys like aravin, qiyang and ashley tormenting our defense throughout. we did our best though to hold them off and score a few through eric and choonheng, while others like me, louis, fadhli and the other gals tried to catch them on the break, but it was not to be. very entertaining game though. even got snippets of the zidane-headbutt and c. ronaldo-rooney incidents. hehe.

tomorrow is the sevens. i hope my past is not coming back to haunt me again.

Bio presentations

2006-06-03T19:39:00.000+08:00

hi guys, here's the zipped file with a compilation of all the powerpoint presentations, Q and As etc. =)

>>> RiGhT cLiCk HeRe...then choose 'Save File As...' <<<

The individual files are also available >>>HERE<<< (KM, under Bio S Paper section)

Be sure to check our all the files, especially our class's presentations ( plants sexual repro and growth+development =] ) , kuan yee's Q and As on plant growth and development (really gd, recommended!) , and an interesting ppt on growth (has pics of crab moulting). Oh ya...i tink our plants sexual repro ppt needs some "updates" and corrections...will post the updated version later.

Thanks to all who came and made the powerpoints and all. Really thanks a lot! Not s'possed to give those who nvr came but aiya heck, i think maybe you all may benefit from 'em more or less.

med check-up

2006-05-13T22:16:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : brain-drained

as I walked alongside fadhli, aravin and navin up the stairs into the building through the auto sliding doors, a gust of air-conditioned wind gushed right into my face, knocking out the nonchalance that i tried to retain for much of the journey hitherto, and replacing it an acute awareness of reality. before we knew it, there we were, semi-unconsciously walking into our first step to the army (or CD or police). Our ICs were immediately checked and we were told to have our pictures taken....in a No. 4 uniform!- err shirt rather...hehe...after that 4 rounds of medical checkups, one of which is the blood test ( and not forgetting the blood taking part). I had to watch navin being pierced twice cos his unsatisfactory blood outflow.ouch...

after the 4 or so stations, our 'folder' would have been milimeters thicker with documents and graphs on ECG, hearing, sight abilities report etc, and then we had our height and weight taken - the normal protocols - and finally see the Medical Officer.

My experience with the MO was particularly interesting.... after brief hi-s and good mornings, he instinctively took out the ECG graph from the folder and immediately remarked,

" wow.... (looking at my perfect, flawless heart beat pattern)...are u a runner?"

"errr noo...i...err juz play soccer...that's all =) "

"ok now let me see your medical questionnaire....... .......wahh quite bad"

" wah what did you do to your hand......................tsk quite bad.........................how often do you get asthma attacks? as in, really, how often?"

haha!

new background music

2006-04-25T19:03:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : happy

im now into anime fever. juz finished watching this anime called Witch Hunter Robin (pix above). awwwwwww.....its damn cool. gothic theme, intriguing storyline and of course sublime animation and nice soundtrack. so i decided to place the theme song here. enjoy =)
btw u can watch witchhunter robin episode 1-26 (the whole season) at youtube. juz search for 'Witch Hunter Robin X' ( replace X with episode no.) yep

driftwood

2006-04-20T18:58:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : in lala-land

I feel like as if my soul is currently drifting, flying to wherever the wind blows. This is wad happen if I'm sick for too long. Whenever I'm in class, my mind will wander off to lalaland, but surprisingly, after mustering as much energy as I can to get myself back in class, the lesson get stored like some photographic film, but after a few mins or so, the lalaland film strip takes over again -_-"

and ahhhh wad a bad time to get obsessed with anime!! looks like I've not only caught the flu fever.....Gundam seed has been in my interest for quite long, but the new obsession lies in this anime series called Witchhunter Robin. It's sooo niiiccceee. dramatic, gothic, awesome CGI, nice storyline, good character development, suspense, action, magical. yep, all the things you're lookin for in an anime that's appealing to a more mature audience =)

CTs are over and out!

2006-03-21T21:01:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : relieved, but disappointed

CTs are over! And as usual, after days of tireless and seemingly endless mugging on a table of mugs of caffeinated drinks and a purposeful tablelight, amidst an evil world that's tempting the mind with the joyful thoughts of doing better things, and the heart with the glorious daydreams of procrastination, I would sit down and start to realise...I could have done soo much better for all the papers....particularly so for today's chem paper. just because of one tiny mistake, i have to redo a whole 9 marks organic chem qn, leaving me at my mercy a pathetic 10mins for the last 10 marks qn. and guess wad...i still got that 9 marks qn wrong. this sums up today. thats it - E/D for chem.

however, i still hold much hope for maths, my worst subject. yep, im harbouring hopes, for the 1st time in 2 years, of getting an A! After all, this is wad i've been working for - maths and bio. (for some reason, i unwarily chunked chem out of my revision time table). having completed NJ's standard qns for mclaurin's series and trigo, it gives me a nice feeling of satisfaction and achievement =) the feeling was bleak though after bio paper. there is absolutely no time ( 2 hours!!!) and no MCQ, so the weightage on the sttructured essays is much higher now. im hoping for a C for bio.

hmmm, i have to admit. the grades i'll be getting will still be sucky.

haix...just some pics from the gd old days..

2006-03-15T01:05:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : StreSsed

scouts peeps =)

during some occassion, special to me

i bet u will take quite a while to find me in tis pic =p

15 minutes

2006-03-07T22:47:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : super mentally drained

15 mins is all i got to premiership highlights.

mugging mood is in the air. well, at least for some people. for me, it hasnt really kicked in yet, but god im already jaded mentally. when i thought religious skul is enough, compounded with Jc ah...thats it, game over for me. but wait, cant give up juz liddat rite...so juz have a shot at CTs lah..hopefully the crash course over holidays will work.

my grades are reallypicking up! omg. i am so happy =)

ok at least im happy for this short moment. coz after tis, my mind will probably be drowned by the thought of CTs.

CTs...CTs....

haiz, now i feel sad over anything else. seeing 2 of my most enthu and hardworking ex-prefects kana accused of something that didnt do is really,really saddening. i feel as if i can do something abt it, but i can't. im in some erm....other skool, they are in PSS. i was somebody, but now im a nobody. im up for supporting whats right, yet im powerless to ammend the situation.... but these things are keeping me bonded to my old skool.i miss those fun times sooo much =X haiz, u prefects keep in touch alrite? =)

drama!

2006-03-01T20:44:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : optimistic, but jaded

Last saturday was our MLDDS drama presentation/performance in front of a full LT 1, filled with people from all walks of life. Real happy to say that it was a blast! Nice experience indeed. I undertook the role of a chi go pe apek, which I previously thought was an insurmountable task considering my contrasting and more guai personality (erhem), but yeah I managed to do it =) all in the name of charity. yeap...proceeds go to charity, nt a single cent less. I was actually more than satisfied having accomplished the dual role of actor-backstage crew.It's great working with Hizam, Mubin and the J1s like Faisal and Abul behind the scenes...The hustle-bustle that we went thru when carrying all those props against time.....However, I have to be angry with myself. Because partly of my lack of confidence, a bit of embarrassment and my long-winded thoughts, I failed to get ticks in time for friends, like subhi and co. and relatives. ARGHHHHHH. Haiz, i so wanted them to come =(

Not to 'act' but finally, at long last, my grades are picking up. I finally get a grip on my time management and manage to gt the tutorials done and all. but i do ponder sometimes, is it because I had one subject less? Sadly,I have to say ....no. It's pretty demoralising; sometimes I think I, and we, deserve another chance to go for 4 subs. I suddenly realise that even with 4 subs now, i can actually make the grades, now that i got in the 'flow'.haiz, but this is life. Now the qn would be whether i can remain consistent from this moment on.

and congrats to u guys who gt gd grades for AO Mother Tongue. so proud of u all hehee.

cny fever!

2006-01-29T10:24:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : happy!

How can I not be happy? finally, a 4-day break!! thx to chinese new year =) to all my chinese frens. gong xi fa cai. xin nien kuai le ;)

on friday, the atmosphere was great. it's not everyday that nj decided its time to cease mugging operations and dwell in the festive mood. everyone's in outside clothing, albeit a few anomaly here and there, and we started the day exchanging oranges at assembly for gd luck. so fun.in the end, juncheng had to bring back em all back. heh.

and yes, the second time we played kompang for a school event. I was the last 'solo' person at the back, smashing the kompang, while the guests of honour walked between our 2 rows. thanks to veron and aravin and the boys shouting my name out loud, i..well..kind of cocked up...and messed up my beat and risk screwing up the whole errr...music. u see, everyone has an important part to play in keeping the beat constant: one screw up, and the rest become clueless. haha no choice, i smiled all the way and tried to synchronise with the music using single beats. could have gone into the crowd and smacked the kompang. lolx.

after that, class outing! but only for an hr. we went to cini, the boys went to KFC, the gals off to some big-bucks restaurant. we had a funny chat, from our different tastes for fashion to NS. then me and fadhli were off to fri prayers, after which we were s'possed to join em for Memoirs of A Geisha. I went back to NJ instead for MLDDS drama, with a promise i made to my mom in mind.

hmmmxx

2006-01-08T21:52:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : tired

first day of school, and we plunged straight into lectures and practicals. wad a gan cheong start to a probably hectic year. and my never-ending thoughts that never seem to die off didn't make the start of 2006 any better....i keep thinking if there'll be any more upcoming events that i can help out and be part of since the immensely successful BoonLay countdown (garnered a turnover of tens of thousand!!), for which Subhi had kindly and generously offered me a helping position but i had to decline =( ...and if i'm craving for such adrenaline-rushing,heart-pumping and challenging activities, y have I not even considered signing up as an OGL....only to half-regret it now.

hmmm i can only say one thing - my jc life didnt go as planned. I'm not sure, maybe its my low-profile 'personality'( haha im not trying to act here ha!) thats bringing me down- or is it....the stupidity in doing so... that's jeopardising my chances to go up the ladder. I dont know, I really don't know.

some people has been assuring and re-assuring me that all will be okay, but how to when I have not shown to others what I'm capable of. and because of the ultra-long hiatus from all kinds of activities that I was used to in sec sch, I'd probably lost my touch, confidence and composure to repeat such 'feats' again. so before I meet my own demise, I will, and can, do it.

2005-12-23T19:41:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : jaded

FINALLY......i manage to almost complete maths exercises. almost, that is, and that may remain the same till the first day of school.

it was the crazy guys reunion yesterday. first plan was to catch chronicles of narnia on its first showing, but, as usual, we received a call from the same old person, Suren, who, as always, suggested we play pool. and what a fun session it was. pool had never been fun.it's not everyday that we got white balls jumping from the table, 2 to 3 balls going in at the same time, or 9 people playing 8-ball pool that lasted one excruciating and ridiculous hour. then the talk-cock session ensured, and the topic on gals didnt seem to change after 5 years -_-' sigh.

and today marked the 7th 'anniversary' of my first soccer match with my neighbouhood errr...neighbours. for 7 years, we roamed the estate for soccer venues, beaten others in field and street soccer matches, accomplished the improbable by defeating bigger and older guys, and established ourselves as an err... established and known team. however, like any other stories, we met unexpected hurdles. the sloping field, which was our first grounds, was converted into an exercise station and taichi court for senior citizens. our 2nd preferred grounds is a yet bigger field, but it now emanates an eerie aura thanks to a 'land owned by state- no trespassing' signboard. although its removal can be arranged, nobody is foolish enough to transcend the boundaries of our law.so, today, instead of the usual shelter where we play nowadays, we headed back to the very, very first place that we met..............the void deck. we had a great match, albeit the fluke goals whereby the ball bounced off the wall into the goal or people banging into the wall.

argh

2005-12-13T22:24:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : restless

Ahhh...so many things to do...maths haven't finished...so is chemistry and SI report.and holiday's finishing in like 3 weeks!! argh there goes all the fun from soccer and occassional outings.

and i better get my studying mood back online, or i will have to face another year of failures,like this tormentous year.haiz.

anyway, i just watched the Project Pilot encore telecast featuring locally made films by aspiring pros. it turned out to be not bad. 'The Section' was on air just now and it was quite intriguing and full of tension...though its originality is questionable since it reminded me well of the movie ' The Final Coundown' when an American aircraft carrier was brought back in time to WWII because of a frreak storm.but, i still praise the director for weaving such a scene into the local context, nicely portrayed in the film.too bad, only half an hour of show, ending with 2 of the army men being gunned down by unknowing Japanese soldiers, while the others were still bewildered as to how bad their luck were to be after they were stuck in a freak storm during a normal wargame routine.

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Excerpts from 'The Final Coundown', from scenes after the aircraft carrier was brought back in time into the WWII battlefield.

Senator Chapman: This is, uh, Senator Samuel S. Chapman, of the United States Senate onboard the aircraft carrier Nimitz. Captain Yelland is here with me.
Pearl Harbor Radio Operator: You're on a what?
Senator Chapman: I repeat. I am Senator Samuel S. Chapman onboard the U.S.S. Nimitz.
Pearl Harbor Radio Operator: Alright, whoever the hell you are. Use of military frequencies by unauthorized personnel is a felony.
Senator Chapman: Now listen here, sir!
Pearl Harbor Radio Operator: As we have no aircraft carrier Nimitz and no Captain Yelland I suggest, asshole, that you stop impersonating some other asshole and get off the air! You're wasting our time!
Senator Chapman: How dare you talk to me that way!

Captain Yelland: This is the captain, I am speaking to every man aboard this ship. In the past few hours many things have happened; rumors of nuclear attacks and a third world war are totally untrue. We have no reason to believe that any aggression has been taken against our homes our families. I believe what we stumbled across is not man-made but a phenomena of nature, one that can't be explained. This phenomena is the storm in which the Nimitz went through less than 18 hours ago, the storm has had some effect on time as we know it, it created a portal, a door into another era. Today is December 7, 1941... I'm sure we are all aware of the significance of this date in this place in history. We are going to fight a battle that was lost before most of you were born. This time, with God's help, its going to be different... Good Luck.

again

2005-12-05T00:49:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : thinking

aiyaaaa the injury list just keep growing. even my 'teammate' Elias conceded that 'I always kana rambat at the wrong place'. ok.. not that place !! -_-' just today, I had to clutch my ankle the whole game in pain cos the opposing player ran into me while I managed to keep out the soccer ball, and yesterday the ball flew straight to my ribs for extra punch. why all those injuries? ...cos I was relegated, literally, to the position of goalkeeper !!! haiz...that's what happen if i lose my 'golden' touch that earned me the nick baggio by ppl outside...hahax...so flattered to be given a famous footballer's name...unfortunately they still call me by that name even when im condemned to be keeper,a position the guys try as much as they could to refrain from.... now that's embarrassing.

anyway, I hope you guys really like the song. its from the movie Spirit: Stallion Of The Cimarron...or something like that. haha Subhi likes it alot..thanks =) I'm still trying to figure out how to rearrange all those links, to make them look more presentable. and (sorry for digressing- random thoughts) I think Apple iPods are cheats....tell u more why in the next posts...

injury list

2005-11-30T00:03:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : well, look below

i will hereby state my current condition, and make it clear that injuries are part of my life...nuttin more =) ok here it goes...

1. gotten myself 4 sites of blisters from my first rollerblading attempt in like 5 years. that was at the class's chalet. they have lousy roller blades, or maybe i wore it wrongly. i tink the former is more likely to be the case.

2. bruises and blue blacks everywhere - something not uncommon for someone who roams the crammed void decks for enjoyable soccer matches. running into walls is entirely avoidable, but not when others lose control over where they ran and how they let their legs fly through the air.

3. it began as a twitching sensation, and now has proceeded into its final stage - a dysfunctional calf, too swollen to move. thanx to some 'mat gangster'.

oh well, its gonna be another rollercoster holiday ride.

verysianle

2005-11-24T19:30:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : sIAn

came down to NJ on wednesday for perbayu (malay society) drama rehearsel with remnants of my week-long flu. it was kinda fun. i got the role of a frog! hehe... tried out the cup noodles from the canteen's vending machine, which wasnt bad...then had a funny soccer match after that, having to see the comical stuff FAD did to overturn the match, which he wasnt comfortable with considering his muscular build and aggressiveness, into a rugby one. after that, i came home, feeling much revitalised and somewhat....healthier.

last promo paper for my religious school, this sat. i'm waiting for it to be over and dome with. only after that will I have the mood to actually get started with holiday homework and other stuff.

anyway, got a hearthache just now watching the Singapore vs Indonesia match. SEA games btw, hosted by the Philippines. the first half couldnt stop me from yawning, but the 2nd was the opposite. Singapore's offensive was impressive towards the end, but always ended up in me shouting at the top of my lungs wanting the bloody ball to be pushed ( yea pushed,literally ) into the net, but somehow, our Young Lions had no luck whenever they were presented the chance in the form of Indonesia's fumbling defense, hapless goalie and an open net.It wasnt wrong for Baihakki Khaizan, S'pore's captain, to cry at the end in utter disbelief at their bad luck. As for me, I promptly switched off the TV and throwed the remote into the sofa....i tink.

NOooo

2005-11-16T21:23:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : sAD =(

NOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooooOOOooooOOOo!!!

I just thwarted the chance to watch Harry Potter tmr morning!!! somemore with old pals and mats from PSS...I thought I can sneak by the backdoor to watch it without anyone knowing that im still sick, but haiz, it was not to be....

Haiz. my life is kinda screwed at the moment. i thought the rollercoster JC life is enough...but only now then i realised it doesn't even match half the difficulty of my religious education/studies ( somewhere - outside of school ).

once again i'd plunged into the abyss of neverending reflection and thinking. once again, i started asking myself those fundamental questions which I knew the answers too well for they were too obvious, but they turned out to be just the opposite in real life.
P.S. err not sure what im talking about, look out for my next posts.

ok nvm. next,i opened my email box, and ( very sorry for being annoying ) I have to do this again.
NOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooooOOOooooOOOo!!!NOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooooOOOooooOOOo!!!
wHaT??!! class chalet is this sat till next mon. and the old class's BBQ also on this sat ??? and sat is my religious school's exams day! first harry potter movie, and now this???? wahhhh what have i done to get this kind of treatment. wanna cry already.

haiz.at least i've got something happy to err brag about. just erased the old maroon 5 pics for this Naruto montage.yea...finally got the time to do it.I just recently proclaimed myself a Naruto fan after watching just one Naruto movie.yea, just one. hehe.Naruto & Adventures of Snow Princess or something like dat. a must-watch (!!) instalment of the Naruto animated series. goin to post a Jap song from the movie soon ;)

bIrThDaY

2005-11-15T12:46:00.000+08:00

Mo0D : sick =(

upDateS : friends blog list

hey guys, thankx a lot for the cake and celebs at haik's house. it turned out to be a great outing. and it was particularly great to round up our hellish PW year with a final fun-filled visit to my team's default PW working place (haik's hse!). hehe. nice food. funny movie. and fun roundabout at the Esplanade.

im experiencing my own flu outbreak in my own home. my sis contracted it first, and now im down with it too.

anyway, had a minor, very very minor surgery yesterday. had painkiller injected into my gum (ouch!). the insanely huge syringe intimidated me for a while, but i tried my best to keep my cool. den a flat electrode is strapped across my left arm, and the doctor took this pen-looking end of the circuit into my mouth ( yes, an electrical circuit). apparently, my gum is growing weirdly, like my teeth, and had to be cut off a bit, so that my orthodontist can proceed with the last stage of my braces. and the cleanest way (minimal bleeding and pain) is to use the electrical method of cutting off small tissues.

ok back to the surgery. the 'pen' made contact with my gum and an instant smoke emanated from my mouth, chocking my already pleghm-chocked windpipe. the assistant scrambled to insert the vacuum tube near my mouth to suck out the smoke. "u ok there Sufyan? " he asked. i juz nodded my head, my mouth nt able to do anyhting with the pen and the vacuum tube stuffed in it. thank god i had the anaesthetic injection.

after the surgery, i went to play soccer right away. hehe. then, only after an hour, i had to scramble home to get my hands on paracetamol, coz the pain from the surgery made its debut (after the aneasthetic effects wore off). now, my gums are alrite, but no soccer for now coz im down with flu and fever. haiz.

which leaves me worrying about another promo exams. my religious school's.i've screwed up NJ's, and surely, i don't wanna repeat the same feat for the upcoming one. which also means i may have to skip the class's chalet (1st day) and soccer matches with my neighbours. haiz.

2005-11-14T18:58:00.000+08:00

selamat hari raya =) haha tis post shd have been posted long time ago.

should i hold my open hse, for all, like haik? i dono...i've always wanted to invite friends to visit here, its been a yearly practice for me u see....hmmm

hahakz anyway, for all the mats and co., selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin. kalau ada silap dan salah, sengap ataupun tidak,maafkanlah saya. tulus ikhlas dari hati =)

tis is a nice,nostalgic song that brought this 'kampong' ambience to life. sorry its in malay. will post an eng song next time though. =p

sEPaSaNg KuRuNg bIRu - kHAiRi JoHAri JoHAr
-

shucks

2005-11-12T01:01:00.000+08:00

thurs rounded up my screwed-up year.

i can safely say almost everyone screw up Bio O. dat thurs was a historic day for many. but a forgettable one too. who wants to remember going through that gruelling 3.5 hours doin 200 mind-boggling MCQs in the freezing-cold gym? not me. well, as always, i screwed up the simpler qns also. haix. as usual.

hmm i've been searching for this movie called See Spot Run. not sure why but i think some unexplainable force are at work, driving me to find the DVD. watched it on channel 5 last week( i think) and found that it was super hilarious, though some were a bit too much, cliched or deserved a 'dotz' or 'doink' remark. it has some elements of close relationship between human and animals ( well its all about a FBI dog, his gargantuan, soft-core hearted trainer, and an utterly stupid and hilarious mailman with his cute neighbour's kid..get it?)

of course, i'm positive that i won't be alone waiting for 17 november 2005. harry potter and goblet of fire. ok, so i can watch it on some other day rite, cant i? but wait....only a few countries like S'pore and Brunei getting to see it first on 17 nov, even U.S. is one the 18th. ok, thats it, must watch on 17th already.

end of the world

2005-10-30T06:40:00.001+08:00

j1 is over....end-of-year vacation looms...yessssss...1 more year to 'A' levels...and THERE ISNT MUCH TIME LEFT.

oh shit.

im really getting serious for work now. one sub down (physics). well i was pressured to do so. nvm. life has to go on rite? i have to take this into my own advantage but how? even dropping a subject wont guarantee me 3 As if i don't work hard.

but now,i've got only 4 things on my mind:
1. OP (shit...)
2. repair comp asap...i need to do some projects
3. Bio O
4. remnants of fasting month ( and Hari Raya after that)

The dismal Hari Raya last year, because of O levels, made me ever more anxious for this year's celebrations, even though i tried not to look like it. it's like a 'payback time', for all the shit i've gone through last year and this year. time to sit back, relax and enjoy before i immerse myself in the sea of books.

but i have a feeling this year's would be a repeat of last year. we may be far apart, but i couldnt let go of the sympathy and sad feelings for muslim cousins in distress all around the globe. how can u be that happy, when your own human race/relatives/cousins , especially when they're affiliated to you in some way or another, are suffering in another part of the world. its kinda inhumane to just face your back on those people, such as those in Afghan,Pakistani and Indian earthquake aftermath.

hmm talking about earthquakes, the earth's getting worse. it appears that we're traversing the limits of our planet i.e. the planet is failing,dying or simply cannot handle the shit we've been dumping to her. we've just had the 13th hurrincane in the West...a new record for a hurricane season...not just more hurricanes, but the intensity of this particular nature's wrath is evidently much higher....ice caps are slowly and fatally melting... the world's obviously getting hotter...we are helpless...and there are still people who insist that all these are nature's work??? wake up your ideas, people. we are ALL in deep shit, and we need to do something asap...

im putting up a hari raya song here soon, after i manage to figure out what shitty virus is erasing my desktop away...i have to run this browser from the Task Manager la...quite pathetic...need to type the whole file location of the browser in the task box because the memory also din work........dont mean to be racist but its a very nice peaceful song....cant resist the temptation to play it here...anyway selamat hari raya and happy deepavali....enjoy your holidays =)

haix

2005-10-23T23:02:00.000+08:00

i cant seem to grasp the truth that my promo results are really, really bad. cant tell u the grades though.

haiz, the problem is that i keep blaming something else, other than myself. maybe it's true i probably made a colossal mistake in choosing to be a slacker in sec sch days and still became stuck in slacking mode in jc (slacking as in really slack). which also means i didnt try my best to be significantly more muggerish tis year to achieve quality grades. haiz. this may as well cost my ambitions and prospect of getting a place in uni...coz i haf to drop a subject =( ...and this will leave me with 3 A level subs (which is quite bad) and a lot more 'free' time ( which is quite gd). i'm not sure, maybe if i can use that free time very wisely, i may get the great As and maybe, who knows, i may piah biomed quiz too, something which i failed to do last yr.

i was strolling around the Net and came across kat-ho's blog. i found her post quite interesting. i quote her as saying (something like...) "whats the use of 4As if u haven't got a nice family..."
I hate to say this, but contrary to my heart, i think that's not really the case nowadays. in an increasingly materialistic world, all that matters now seem to be the grades or whatever there is to show (off) one's achievements, but not necessarily his/her true credentials....

wad a sad world.and sad life.

bio O is cumin up...hopefully i achieve something to get back my morale. hopefully (also) to give back something to the college, other than my shitty marks.

can u believe it...yesterday was the first ever day in this yr i caught a premiership match live on TV. u may haf guessed it...man utd vs tottenham. I was on a high when silvestre (tyco-ly) lunged into the ball across the goalline after tottenham's paul robinson failed to handle nistelrooy's harmless-lookin header. man utd 1 tottenham 0. after that goal, i fell asleep -_- "

wad is happening

2005-10-16T17:35:00.000+08:00

i tink the dynamism and thrill of witnessing the competitiveness of EPL is nothing short of... gone. thanks to Roman Abramovich (i nt sure spelling correct or not - spelling russsian names is nt my forte) , Chelsea is simply unbeatable. even if they are beaten, it may mean the other team is super tyco, there's divine intervention going on, or its just a matter of time before Roman goes shopping in the players' supermarket to buy world-class players with his Visa Mastercard.not the end of story.

I believe short-term stupidity has taken over maestro Wenger. selling Vieira without a proven,definite and confirm-can-make-it player as his replacement shd have been the last thing he'll ever do- and he did it, of course.

and newcastle, even with Owen, is back to their losing ways early in the season, losing to Wigan, a newly promoted team that hasnt been in top-flight football before.

even kenneth, self-proclaimed biggest Arsenal fan, lost hope on his fave team winning the league this time ( so far he had never ever given up hope). I feel for him, man.

finally set foot on pss

2005-10-11T21:42:00.000+08:00

life's gonna get tough again...and tis time even more busier.

our PW has always pivoted about this campaign that's gonna be held soon. a big campaign. however, a phone call last month- i tink- abruptly and unceremoniously placed our lives at stake....the organiser whom we have been collaborating with actually had their campaign cancelled. yes, a few weeks before OP and we're toast. carbonised.

so this means we have to do everything manually and with a virtually negligible budget. we have just a night to prove our project successful, which is this sat, and we're now caught in the tug-of-war between time and quality. so, u can imagine the tense moments now. just a few more days , every single thing (even game boards etc) to be done by hand and no money. so, as usual, hopefully determination and hard work will lead us out of this mess, as what we accomplished last time.

despite the trip to toapayoh for PW, i still managed to get back to pioneer sec in time. not that i have nuttin better to do. well, for the first time since dono how long, my fellow prefects actually called me...asked me to tutor them...hmmm..of course i accepted, and it was experience not to be forgotten. nice to meet old frens, teachers who are coincidentally alumnis of nj (a fact which took me by surprise). i miss the prefects room...ahhh...the sofas, the whiteboard, the speaker system, the pentium II comp where we played fifa 98....haiz really good old times.

i donno why, but it seems everythin that has/had happened in pioneer sec, or i.e. a neighbourhood skool, had an slight upper edge over jc life, in terms of interactivity, life, fun. in some things lah. but of course that doesnt mean jc life loses out. met many good frens, maybe will accomplish less but more fulfilling achievements etc... but one thing's for sure....i haven't really gel into nj life. i don't know, i just feel like dao-ing all the time. infection from kenneth 1st 3 mths perhaps?

hehe.

im getting increasingly worried about the current prefects board and my promo results le... and still regretting over the many failures last time that u all weren't aware of...serious....even though u all said ive done a gd job blablabla....haha anyway thanx for compliments. u noe what i mean.

2005-10-09T17:30:00.000+08:00

it's the end of promos...and im not happy abt it. knowing that u have worked and still not performed well for actual pprs is killing me. haiz. not going to dwell on that.

hmm im goin to digress. lets join in the jailed blogger fiasco.

the papers had it that the pair (the convicted bloggers) claimed they aren't racist, and yet they still did it....its ironic... i mean...ya they can regurgitate whatever that's on their mind online, but they should have been more than just aware that the world is reading their blogs, and that they are always susceptible to the scrutiny and criticism of the party they'd 'bad-mouthed' in their remarks.well, thats something we all bloggers shd take note....

hmm tmr's games day. i've joined inter house soccer and yet im fasting. so u can imagine my situation later. c if i can hold on, like my old days when i used to play hardcore soccer prior to dawn ( a.k.a the time to break our fast). but im feeling guilty for doin so. not so because of the fact that i shd be relaxing while fasting. its more because of my poor promo performance- again...i mean haiz...i don deserve this..the fun post exam times and all...

anyway, i have to stay focused and positive rite. after all, bio O is cuming up, and im somehow harbouring much hope for success tis time...of course this doesnt me i will confirm get honours, ...but yea, im goin to work hard - i hope...

tan kah kee awards is another one im lookin towards to... i tink it will be days at the drawing board again, piahing intensive brainstorming sessions with yutian and bingzhao like early tis year. hoping we can win honours for nj again =)

hmmm perhaps i should go back to my old pastime. don tink u all know this, but besides bio and soccer, i like comp programming and stuff a lot. but my maths sux so... the irony list goes again. theres still flash and other stuff like hardware techies that im still interested in..and i hope to revive those old interests soon...first with the instalment of the flash music player i used to have here. dono what song to put up though. maybe..........i dono la...do u remember by Aaron Carter ( i hate him- sorry! - but the song's nice)

and this years kinda stagnant when it comes to the music industry. hmmm not many super hits.. though there have been unexpected successes from unsuspecting 'artistes' like crazy frog with his cute techno songs. i dono...but the latest to capture my attention is backstreet boys' Never Gone (which is.. like june?) and The Rasmus's new album.

as u can see, im talking crap. of course, talking crap is one of the fave things human beings do when they're bored. It is an in-born social phenomenon. When there're other human around, and when time seems to be crawling and there's nothing to do, the self-entertainment mechanism kicks in. It's tsk...dono how to say...natural thing? perhaps it is a result of evolution! darwin's natural selection. maybe the early homo sapiens who juz cant make it in crap-talking died out of boredom, leaving the more crappy sapiens to live on and pass on the crap genes...and voila! here i am.

sorry this post is full of crap.

2005-10-05T13:13:00.000+08:00

last time, my biggest upsets were at most C grades. now i have to face the prospect of facing the abyssmal Es, Os and Fs. and a possibility of getting evicted. ( nak kene doa banyak-banyak dah...)
haiz.

this yr's promos were surprisingly much much harder than previous promos. prob near RJ's standards, or for e.g., our bio paper should already match their level. i had done preparations, but now then i realise 1-2 mths of revision isnt enough, for my case that is. and im still slow at doin all those calculations and stuff :(

2005-09-30T21:35:00.000+08:00

I'm finally starting to realise that my current class are better than any class i've been to in my whole life, of course, besides my upper sec class. the camaraderie, jokes and everything have been nothing less than interesting and never-ending. jc life, especially NJ life, isnt stagnant after all =)

ok back to serious business. promos another 3 days more. im dead. shit. bleah.

how stupid can u be? argh

2005-09-23T20:33:00.000+08:00

omg. i've juz committed the stupidest mistake in my whole life. even the other choice ive made back then ( u noe what i mean) pale in comparison to this. today was my GP promo exam....and i screw it big time. paper 1 was not bad, but for paper 2....thats where i fell into the drain. for summary, i did it based on passage 2 instead of passage 1 as instructed, so leaving me with little time to do a new summary and ample time to fetch 4 out of 9 marks for AQ. it was super stupid case of misintepretation. epitome of all stupid mistakes. man, i've never anticipated a downfall in my english standard, esp. in such a fashion ....................................

" the question and concern is not what we exploit, but how much we exploit...." ...a quote i used for essay, derived from Martin Luther King Jr.'s ...

morning rush

2005-09-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

it was early morning. i was geared up, i was up to the occassion. it was 2.35 am and i had my hands loaded with tys and the various homework sheets (or shits, when appropriate). settled down in the living room where the lightings are the best and switched on the remote control. bad move. man utd match was ongoing. live somemore. temptation beckoned. i fought it, quickly shifting my focus on the books laid before me. it took me a moment later to grab that black long rectangular device again and press on the suddenly luminous red button. i watched the match anyway......

sick and jaded

2005-09-10T23:37:00.000+08:00

this is yet another horrible holidays. deja-vu again.

firstly, we have to spend the days revising for promos. which is quite a norm for s'pore students. but, undeniably, still a very bad thing.

secondly, i fell sick again. a repeat of last yr's holidays. started out with flu. then fever. then stomach flu. until recently, diarrhoea. the feeling- absolutely horrible. the fatigue and dizziness- very naseating. and the hours of endless sleep? unexpectedly soothing. i only like sleeping and napping when im sick, not sure why. and there goes my precious time,which was supposed to be spent on mugging rather than dozzing off in bed. HAIZ.

im in deeeep trouble.

anyway, found the new scandals site very interesting. certainly more livelier than the previous one, and it looks set to stay active for long. good idea guys but the timing could have been better. if only it was there a long time ago.......didn't tink of it i guess... http://05s19scandals.blogspot.com

i got addicted to Naruto too. finally have to admit tis. esp the movie. super nice. really like the well-balanced mix of humour, special effects, intricate battles, inspiring storyline and fiery spirit portrayed by the very talented and determined young warrior Naruto, who aspires to be the best of all.

at least they're some things that make me ,more or less, forget about my current condition, and the fact that i came in late (again...) this time for actual bio SPA. was pretty embarrasing for me actually. in fact that time, i walked into the room emotionless, with my head spinning and the fever on the high. taking a practical exam in such conditions could never have been worse. at least i manage to put in all my energy for skill C....

we believe x6..... in this love...

2005-09-04T19:54:00.000+08:00

We are all the same
Human in all our ways and all our pain
(So let it be)
There’s a love that could fall down like rain
(Let us see)
Let forgiveness wash away the pain
(What we need)
And no one really knows what they are searching for
(We believe)
This world is crying for so much more

We believe(x6)
In this love

The night of the 3rd of September, coincidentally the last day of hungry ghost period, changed everything. It had been a v long time since i last attended scouts, let alone ventures, and when i stepped into the final official ceremony of our 'dilapidating' troop with my usual shyness, i could feel this part of me being rejuvenated....i didn't actually realise i'm pretty much a part of scouting, and the troop...even though i hadn't been that active...the camaraderie, friendship, and teamwork are just, simply-said, overwhelming. it's refreshing to see the ever-happy stress-free faces of the old scouts, still sprouting jokes that are old and yet still manage to maintain the familiar humorous aura around em... and ya, THANKS a lot for the cow balls...though i rather call them fish balls.

We believe, the song u should be hearing from ur speakers now, was the song they presented, complete with acoustics and guitars. A nice, and supposedly noisy rock song, with a catchy tune and immensely meaningful lyrics. A song to wrap up 2-5 years worth of wonderful memories, left for us to reminisce and for others to listen to and learn from.

The final part was a surprise. CheeHwa Sir suddenly wanted to hear some ghost stories, and a few scouts followed suit. So, there we go, in the final night, final moments of hungry ghost period, telling ourselves ghost stories in a dark room, lit by the luminous glow of a few small candles. It was really fun (not to mention scary also), hearing those encounters during NS, trip to Old Changi Hospital etc. Had to went back before 12 mdnite (haiz...) , and the guys wanted to walk with me back home for my own protection. Seriously, im touched by ur concern guys, really, coz on my way home alone...err ok nvm tell u guys some other time. anyway, Thanks a lot =)

haiz never get to hear the story abt pioneer primary....

We believe(x6)
In this love

In this love
We believe
In this love
We believe
In this love
We believe
In this love

Haiz... i will miss u guys.

oh ya, not forgetting chongtat...thanx for cuming been,nice talking to an old fren , who's also going through the stressful JC life. and enjoyed the superb buffet too =)

The day before was yet another reunion...of the old express mates. BBQ was done quicker than usual, despite the downpour earlier tat day. i was dao-ing unlike normal times, and only stick with anshul and cheehoe, playing soccer and cricket (??!!) with them. of course, like the old days, we talked cock, joked around etc... memories of secondary school life, esp in neighbourhood schools like mine, was and would always be the best in my memory. for a very long time...

bored

2005-08-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

i did this quite along time ago. basically turned my desktop and comp's theme to this :

looks cool rite? the tiny things you see at the sides are widgets, floating components that do anything, from showing time, date, fetching the latest news, showing ur comp's resources and mostly used programs ( as shown in the pic). Actually, they're not natives in Windows; they're a part of Macintosh's OS, which is y Europe likes Apple's Macintosh very much (there are not as many PCs in Europe). The widgets are very very customizable; u can resize them, drag them around, place them anywhere on the screen etc...so to be able to do this in the ever rigid Windows, it will really enhances user experience. try it out yourself. go to : www.konfabulator.com

oh ya...

2005-08-25T23:31:00.000+08:00

was very very glad i went for 4v1's outing last week...was even glad that the grp was by far one of the biggest- around 15+ pple? well, that's because i've not gone out with them many times myself. anyway, gone are the days where my parents restrict me to home like...whoa. no words to describe. i went straight down from newton to have dinner at IMM, then we went to JE entertainment. on the way, anshul the tok-cock king fell into the drain, so wad else that's better to do than pushing him towards any hole we encountered along the way. hahaa. revenge is sweet. muahahaha. anyway, it's always nice to talk with the old guys again. i don't know...but everything's much better with the old pals, our minds and conversation and interests and spontaneity juz seem to click with each other. i think that's what been making our jokes/conversations more err fun? if we have an Aravin in 05s19, i tink we had a lot of Aravins in 4v1....after that played pool/ LAN. not bad lar. been a long time we actually haf fun while we share the various jc/poly experiences. was impressed that cheeming came in tops for chem at sajc, not bad...anshul is err well,nvm....others i presume are doing ok at their polys.
looking forward to next fri's BBQ- if it's still on. can't wait to meet the teachers, who (a few of em i tink) happen to be ex-NJCians. haha. so cya again ppl.

as always...

2005-08-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

like always, im goin to start off with my rants, woes...

i'm bloody tired. the long distance home is taking a toll on me. looks like im nt the only one. so is my neighbour next block, also an NJCian.

promos are just weeks away. im not even half thru revision, considering that i need more time than most people to mug properly.

now doin PW, which is getting interesting and more intensive....which also means never-ending fatigue. last wed we visited IMH (huh?) aka woodbridge ( yes now THAT sounds familiar) for some research on mental health. isnt a bad place after all, with all the brand new modern facilities and stuff. after that,gotta to rush to SGH to get my braces fixed. fuh...it was a race against time up and down S'pore island. still tired from it.

cant wait for tmr though. gonna play soccer before prayers. it'd becum a tradition among the boys i think, which is good cos we don't really have time to really get together and have fun together in a mug-free environment. though sadly not all the boys are in.

oh shit lost is on tv.

first (and stupid) poem in so many years...

2005-08-17T21:48:00.000+08:00

promos.
50 days away.
better study hard from now...
or not...so swei (lah).

now feelin the stress
it's nearly time for 'redemption'
as long as i do my best
(hopefully) can get distinctions

project work
so 'mentally exhausted' from it, i am
i still like my project a lot though,
but still need to improve my EOM....wahlao..

whos that?

2005-08-07T19:11:00.000+08:00

Me, my sis and TAUFIK BATISAH.

My not-so-distant relative and new 'neighbour'.

How I got this pic is self-explanatory =P

omg

2005-08-03T20:31:00.000+08:00

omg.oh my god.

one lightning strike on my block is all it took to make the unthinkable happen. the power surge literally fried my hard drive and as u might have guessed....there went my files. project work, projects from sec sch till now, pics, and most notably my mp3 library, which took most of my tens of gigabytes of space....all GONE...to heaven.

NOOOooooo.

In my previous post, I've forgotten- again- to cap it off with another ' everything has a good meaning behind it'... yes, whatever that had happened as mentioned in the last post truly had a hidden meaning....but a fried hard drive?? hmm....i guess it's another 'test' of my patience.

and it taught me a lesson. always backup your files no matter wad. look at me...failed to make use of the webspace, mp3 player, and CD-RW to store copies of 'em. so, u noe wad to do. back up your files before a lightning strike causes a power surge and brings an unfortunate death to ur beloved comp.

i have to change my life, literally. tink i've found the mugging 'touch', after months of waiting. and only 2 months to promos. so, gona demolish current timetable, as if there is any, and make an improved one. of course must put aside days for class outings, trips back to pioneer and etc. cant wait to see my old frens again. =)

and finally passed my napfa. woohoo. i'd overcome the limit, obviously in the form of this killing exercise which wasn't exactly designed to be that way (called the pull-ups) , and now im free! free of remedial pe lessons and free to play games! but wait. i won't forget u guys...who have been there training pull-ups with me, giving me support ( and still cant really make the cut till now). don worry guys. i won't leave u. u will have my moral support =)

that's what (good) friends are for, rite?

deja vu

2005-07-26T21:23:00.000+08:00

My weaker side wanna cry again. it's deja vu all over again.

I missed by a point for my psle to get into a mendaki camp for top 5% malay students.

now, i missed by a point for my l1r5 (i think) to get the mendaki award.

wahahhaa.

now im laughing to myself.

weird.

7 weeks to promos.

so, better buck up now or i never will.

oh wait juz realise my CT grades are another example of deja vu. reminds me of my prelim 1 results.

ok i forget to put on the music here again. and pass my dan brown bks to them again. can i consider that as deja vu too?

beginning and goodbye

2005-07-22T20:32:00.000+08:00

i finally realised i cant get out of the vicious cycle of slacking. it's damn hard after being immersed in a 'work very little, play very hard' environment for about 3.5 years to just switch gear in a matter of months. I didn't expect it to be as easy as those advices/sayings people give me, like ' before you know it, you'll get there'. Contrary to that, i know exactly how long i've been struggling to achieve that one goal. and im quite aware i haven't been in the right set of mind to face the promos.a horrifyingly 8 weeks to go. so...i have to fall back on the simplest methods of thinking, which i failed in most of the time, and came up with a simple solution: find a new,solid source of inspiration. found one already, but nt sure whether it's going to work. not telling u what/who it is...but i can assure u it's not any gal...juz for u, my scandalous frens, to take note =p.

that photo-taking session at the pond just now was vibrantly tinted with smiles and laughter, but we all knew this rare occassion where the whole class actually get together to get a class photo to be taken was to bid our final goodbye to our beloved bio tutor Mr Chan Huang Kiat.. not that our class is not united, i can safely say it is, but it's kindsa weird to say we haven't really got an official pic yet. Nice to see him laugh his usual authentic and humorous laughter, and pulled off some pranks on us, while we ,of course, did the same to him, as enthusiastic as always. the jiaqi-connection and all. then we had a final scandalous chat, during which many suddenly seemed to be paired up like couples at the same moment, possibly by divine intervention. but behind all those laughters, i can actually sense this slight hint of sadness. i think he will certainly be sorely missed by many, not just our class. i'll look forward to meeting him next June, so in the meantime, I wish him all the best for his studies at NIE.

Finally, some pics taken juz now:

Boys Inc. Mr Chan looking very happy.

Girls and lucky Mr Chan. y the 'glum' look Mr Chan?

Family photo. Awwww..

And finally, 05S19 with Mr Chan!
minus councillors and canoeist =P

sheeeet

2005-07-13T22:48:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhh. i'm beginning to feel really out of place again.

maybe you're rite...i am suffering from acute inferiority complex.

ahhhhh.

stupid me.

=)

haix

2005-07-11T21:56:00.000+08:00

common tests results are out. i did very,very,very badly. i'm serious. full-stop.

nvm at least got somethin to be happy about. we won the 2nd runners-up position for the Solar Innovations '05, a kind-of prestigious environmental competition among schools. lost to AJC and HCI!! grrr....but yea, i'm very grateful though. without my friends bingzhao, kat ho and of course group leader lim yu tian, all these wouldn't have been possible. Thanks guys, and gd job! woohoo.

lookin forward to the seoul garden outing with the other team ;)

had real fun last sat at hsiutzu's condo. whoa, i was truly mesmerised by the beauty of the compound la. damn nice, nice rainforest+beach setting amidst the urban landscape....spent a lot of time talking rubbish and reminiscing the good old days, since the person whose b'day we're celebrating was none other than our 1st 3 mths fren Gillian! of course, i won't forget the pizzas, potato chips, halal choco cake from Malaysia (THANKS!)...woohooo...didn't regret for cumin...hahaz...even though the $11 is erm.............................................................................................................................

so many things so little time

2005-07-05T19:59:00.000+08:00

weekdays - school, kompang practise?
wednesday - CCA
saturdays - religious college!!...PW?... dikir barat practise?
sundays - sleep, rest, catch best programmes on TV

that leaves me with only a few hours on Sun to mug, plus an hour or two everyday to mug (and of course read novels and watch tv)....im seriously lacking in time hahakz.

anyway heres one of my fave songs from bboy's new album.will be putting the song here soon.
the lyrics are not exactly wat im lookin for, but the song's nice :)

BACKSTREET BOYS - CLIMBING THE WALLS

Close your eyes, make a wish, this could last forever
If only you could stay with me now
So tell me what it is that keeps us from each other now
Yeah, it's coming to get me
You're under my skin

Chorus:
No I can't let you go
You're a part of me now
Caught by the taste of your kiss
And I don't wanna know the reason
Why I can't stay forever like this
Now I'm climbing the walls cuz I miss you

Take my hand, take my life
Just don't take forever
And let me feel your pain kept inside
There's gotta be a way, you and I together now
Yeah it's coming to get me
You're under my skin

Chorus:
No I can't let you go
You're a part of me now
Caught by the taste of your kiss
And I don't wanna know the reason
Why I can't stay forever like this
Now I'm climbing the walls cuz I miss you

It's an illusion, how can I feel this way
If I can't have you
It's an illusion, nothing is real this way
If I can't have you

(Repeat chorus 2X)

hmmm

2005-07-04T18:37:00.000+08:00

i decided to give the backstreet boys' new album another chance to ahem impress me, and so i did it with much faked exuberation last nite on the mrt ride home, during which i didnt get to sit for the whole journey. track one was incomplete...ah skip..listen to that too much already. went on to track 2 and as the melody and lyrics seeped into my ultra-bored soul, i suddenly found myself becoming impatient to finish the song and move on to the next.and the next.till the last song which the album's named after, Never Gone. that was one of the looong MRT rides I thoroughly and truly enjoyed. harhar.

seriously, I recommend u all to get the album. each song has its own distinct 'personality'. has its own unique melody, chorus and to some extent, lyrics. plus a mix of a few genres the band's known for.like pop ballad, 'techno-pop' (note: my own term),rock ballad?. i bet it's gonna be another platinum album. the figures are showing signs already...no. 1 in so many countries, including India, which i didn't really expect to be the case. anyway, it goes to show how nice the album is.

btw, today marks a milestone in our history. as in mankind's history. An impactor from the Deep Impact spacecraft has successfully crashed into the comet Tempel 1. woohoo. some may be wondering why im making this such a big issue. wads the big deal abt us hitting a heavenly rock with some piece of scrap metal. well kid, its not about hitting, its about the pics. super close-up pictures of the comet, even those just before impact can be found at NASA's webby. super coool.

i know the pics are kinda blurry and all, but they may be opening a new chapter in our encyclopedias- and a new chapter for science students in the future :p .after all, comets are remnants of those particles and gases that formed planets and stars eons ago, or maybe even pieces of planets that were being hit by other comets during their infant yrs, so naturally they are floating evidences that show how our universe was formed.

today also marks a new milestone in our history, and particularly mine. today's youth day, or in other terms, the last day of a well-deserved but too-short a 3-day weekend break. HAIZ.....

CIP

2005-07-03T22:08:00.000+08:00

CIP so far has been fun for me. Last time, it was the record-breaking attempt to make the world's longest popiah with numerous beneficieries. That was at Sentosa, and you can guess why it was held there, for the different games and all.

Just now was at an orphanage at Eunos. Me and the malay people from Malay Society gotta set up a booth there, where we let kids play some fishing games. haha it was pretty fun helping those kids 'cheat' to get their five 'fishes' easily and subsequently reap real rewards in the form of toys - which they could choose from a wide range of choices. haha...no wonder our stall seemed to be very popular among those kids ^^

Having lots of fun is one thing, but knowing that the fun and sweat and the occassional fight over boredom goes into making difference in the lives of the unfortunate, may it be big or small, gave us this sense of achievement and satisfaction.at the end of the day, we were joyous and happy, we got to sabo one of our people for throwing water at us earlier in the day. I felt sorry for him. His over-exaggerated 'punishment' was like a hundred times worse than what he did to us- we shot him with the big water gun, pushed him into the 'fishing pond', sprayed him with water while he was under the table picking us loose balls.

Hahaha. one utterly disappointed guy. 10plus more happy people. and I knew i will never regret prioritising this over a possible class outing with old classmates, which has been agonisingly cancelled again coz ive forgotten my poly peeps didn't get to celebrate youth day. well....i have to say something to 'em.....: TOO BAD! harhar so evil of me.

but hey im sad ok.i've been waiting for just one, yes ONE, movie outing with old peeps and it looks like i'll just have to forget about it - and them.

WTH. honestly, im not one who just get on with life in a totally new and isolated world,in this case NJC, and forget about old friends as though they've never existed in my life.

a confession to make

2005-07-01T22:01:00.000+08:00

after reading jiaaqi's blog ( i didn't know she has a blog!), i realised she had read the book too. kind of expected. and she read it like 10 yrs ago? not to be outran by her, i need to make a confession now. i have actually read the bk during my K2 days......the children's version lol .hahaha....its a simplified bk or i dono wat la. but won't consider it as reading coz i was more interested in the illustrations. mind-provoking. instantly my imaginations went wild when i laid my eyes on em.

I have to disagree on Jiaqi's point that the movie matches HG Wells' description of the alien itself. As I've said, the alien in the movie is totally new.wasnt supposed to look humanoid. and just for an extra bit of info, the aliens came from Mars (Martians) and they reproduce by.........budding! yep, as in the offspring grows from the parent via a small extension, then breaks off when the time is right. cool rite.
The alien ships are spot on with the writer's imagination though. or may even be better off with the realistic CGI and graphics.

i dont mind watching it again with u guys. nj and pioneer frens.

AND I'VE GOTTEN MY HANDS ON THE BACKSTREET BOYS CD.

my cousin brought it alll the way from Dubai. so gd of her. the genre's is a bit different, a few songs sound oddly like BBMak's,many still uphold the distinctive 'Backstreet Boys style', the tunes are no longer easy to remember, and im beginning to think the Millenium Album is just another one-album-wonder (plus the previous album). so my verdict: disappointing. don't expect to hear repeats of feats like 'The One' or the 'Shape of My Heart' or wateva. but the songs are still nice to the ear. they're just not....rememberable...haha does tis word even exist?

Backstreet Boys' Never Gone Album

2005-07-01T16:43:00.000+08:00

Is it here in S'pore yet? tell me if you've seen it.
It's a blast in other countries. Read this:

The Backstreet Boys are back on top of the Billboard album charts debuting this week at #3 in the U.S. Worldwide Never Gone is topping the album charts with #1's in Japan (on the international chart), Germany, India, Chile, and Korea with Top 5 album debuts in Austria, Sweden, Switzerland, Holland, Italy, Mexico and Brazil.

Sorry if this sounds weird/disgusting/painful/awful,
Backstreet Boys is my fave boy band :)

You can here some full-length clip of the songs in the new album at www.backstreetboys.com

wow...my unimportant wanted-list this time has finally exceeded its limit, which is 1 at any one time.
1) Backstreet Boys' Never Gone Album
2) Harry Potter & Half Blood Prince
3) Artemis Fowl bks

as usual, i tink my wanted-list will juz.....stay on as a unimportant list.

War Of The Worlds

2005-07-01T15:45:00.000+08:00

ok...i'm sooo into War of the Worlds. probably the best sci-fi movie ever. and it happens to be my fave sci-fi novel, though i didn't really like its original old classic WWI setting. u c...its written in 1890s by H.G. Wells. Quite a feat for a sci-fi writer in his period. Anyway i feel so 'honoured' to have read the bk long before anybody and to see the story alive in the movie is just satisfying.
so...for those who have watched it and want to noe how it deviates from the original story...well feel free to read my penny of thought.

*** WARNING: IF U HAVE NOT WATCHED THE MOVIE, PLEASE DON'T SCROLL DOWN. SPOILER ALERT ***

the original novel, like the movie, focuses on a character....unlike Independance Day which gave an overview of the aliens vs humans war. This itself adds a new twist against the backdrop of dread aura exuded by those aliens. Heres the difference: H.G. Wells wrote about a gentlemen, who obviously got separated from him loved ones in the midst of the attack, then met some artillerymen along the way and managed to survive blablabla....then u noe wat happens.....while Spielberg's version is in the form of a divorced father who raced to survive and save his children from the merciless aliens, portraying the transition from his once selfish attitude to one of a selfless father. obviously there's a message Spielberg wanna reach out to us behind it.

Spielberg's alien-landing and the way it was buried in the ground via lightnings that strike menacingly on the same spot ( quoting tomcruise: lightning never strikes twice on the same spot......) is apparently his own original idea. probably tailored to make the movie more scary. Wells' version is more of a slowly-wait-and-see situation. there's this astronomist who happened to spot some cylinders via his telescope flying off the surface of Mars, heading towards our very planet. Slowly,at different intervals, more cylinders were launched from Mars, one after another. Then, one by one, they landed on earth, and the inferno begins.

There are still a lot more but im going to round things up with the aliens themselves. The novel is obviously filled with 'aliens' everywhere - jellyfish-shaped, huge bird beaks, evilish eyes, tentacles, no legs. However, it's different for the movie. For once, I thought the aliens in Independance Day had jumped ship to War of the Worlds, coz they look pretty much the same. big ET eyes, humanoid shape, exoskeleton skin and shell, and black.

But it's kinda a waste to end the movie just like that. Spielberg is asking WotW fans to smack him. the ending part of the novel is kinda sombre anyway....scientists taken alien bodies to operating tables....autopsy....learn more about the alien physiology....makes sure they're prepared for another invasion....Spielberg should have added this part...and I prefer it to end with TomCruise saying "Told you Boston is safe....." .....nah. it was not to be. but not bad for a movie filmed in 7 months...YES 7 SHORT MONTHS!!..and in only 27 filming sessions! i can understand Spielberg's desire to showcase the movie a.s.a.p...he had been waiting for like 7 years...he wanted to film WotW in 1997 but there was already another movie of about the same concept. Independance Day was the title.

I give it a 3.5-4.0 out of 5.

lemme quote this movie critic webby: WotW was obviously a grade-B movie, but what a grade-B movie!!!

common tests! (edited)

2005-06-30T19:01:00.000+08:00

yes! common tests are over !!! but im not that happy...

anyway, just came back from cineleisure. watched WAR OF THE WORLDS with choonheng(yes!) and ashley. i was really anticipating a movie screening since i've read the novel long time before (ard 5 years ago) and was wondering how it would look like on screen.oh yah by btw the novel's like abt 100 yrs old! thanks to steven spielberg, the screened version exceeded my expectations. superb graphics, exuding monstrocity and menacity of the aliens and the dark aura of dread...nice camera pans...zooming around the moving car while tomcruise and co. were talking...you're rite ashley..only the best directors can do it, and spielberg's one of 'em. and i really appreciate the emotional parts poytrayed by the divorced dad-daughter-son relationship...really adds a new dimension to the whole plot. wat a nice movie to wrap up a painful week.

back to CTs.

i tink i did quite badly. i studied quite hard for 2 subjects, but discovered some topics that i've missed out just a day before the paper. that's when i realised last-minute mugging wasn't working for me anymore. i seriously need to WAKE UP! coming from a absolutely 1000% slacker school is not a gd excuse. ya ya...i hopped onto the slacking wave for the past 4 years, sprinted and worked hard for Os, wanted to go to NJ and successfully gotten into the school....and now i have to jump ship to the mugging (and-knows-how-to-have-fun-too) side.

that means..i need to do consistent work! ahhh...i hate that...

GP was quite a breeze last time....but not any more now. i was more like staggering rather than writing english words. expected score: B
Bio was not bad. though i didn't finish 2 qns. expected score: A
Physics. okokla. not too hard, not too easy either. didn't complete a 6 marks qn cos i left that topic to be studied on the nite before but fell aleep instead. expected score: B, A a bit possible.
Chem. no comments. i totally screwed up. mental block throughout paper. expected score: D/E
Maths is soooo difficult. 30 marks gone juz like that. expected score: C/D

which is y i am going to START MUGGING FOR PROMOS TMR!!! or the day after next.
sori for the outburst but that's the only way i can do well. serious. but obviously not mugging hard-core every single day.

haiz.

i try not to tink abt it but...i tink i made a mistake by heeding my parents' advise to go to a neighbourhood school...not that its bad but i would have certainly learnt and gained more in some better school...it's a fact ryt?

vicknesh said its a gd thing i came from a neighbourhood school and made it to nj...it shows that i've developed a hardworking personality....hmm maybe hardworking a bit, but certainly not a smart and very quick-witted one...

but i will surely not regret meeting the some of the best friends and teachers around ;)

ok i shall not mull over the old affairs.

ok next up: outing at sentosa. the last outing is giving me the creeps now. u noe wat i mean. as in maybe there'll be not enough people for the outing to be considered......an outing?

hahaha.

shd have taken neoprints juz nw. ahhhhhh.

hell

2005-06-22T00:33:00.000+08:00

another day at yu tian's house. piah the SI presentation. spent 3/5 of the time doin powerpoint, 1/5 on tis program...super zai on horoscope la.there we go joking abt katherine and **** ***. him supposedly havin a preference over foreign ppl, and her liking intimate relationships, and usually 'experiences romantic emotions during learning experiences with him'. so when they're mugging together....LOOK OUT!!! hahaha.

ok.the final 1/5 of the time is spent on Gundam Seed gameboy emu game.

so anti-climax.

but found it really nice. nt amused by the emulation of the gameboy on the normal PC, but rather pleasantly surprised at how close the game came to re-ennacting the famous Gundam face-offs. cool graphics, awesome special moves, and stupid Gundams that beat others using spastic moves like jumping around tirelessly and shooting the cannon around like nobody's business.

presentation nt completed though. still have to compliment the final part and try to enhance visual effect. haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......

and im torn between CIP and SI presentation, coincidentally moved to tis sat...WAHHhhhh

sian.sian. and muz mug also. ...left how many days? or shd i say....how many more hours haf i gt???? >.<

ahhh...the mental torture. the panic. the fatigue. the time !!!

wahhhaha..im gonna be bonkers soon

La Vita E Bella

2005-06-10T17:58:00.000+08:00

Current song: Somewhere over the rainbow (IZ), Breathe in (Lucie Silvas)
Current mood: Part sian,part mugging mood

wah, it's been a looong time since i last blogged. erm here's a super lame excuse for doing so: i just don't have the right mood. or in other words, i'm darn lazy. i haf another reason, which sounds more erm...reasonable? i was in brunei!

and darn, it was a great place.Royalty is clearly depicted in the gorgeous mosques(cos they boast very beautiful architecture) and the various Sultan's palaces (yes various as in several) that could have easily dwarfed our istana (and suntec city and esplanade).hehe.

and its amusement park is simply great.they call it Jerudong Park..finally found the epitome of an entertainment place that promises endless fun. maybe only disneyland can be better, but with its wealth of games/'stations', I think i would rather go there than HK or Japan. You can find anything there..u name it, giant roller-coasters(the super-giant one had to be closed down cos a S'porean guy died there cos of heartattack recently -_-"), Go-Karts, Bumper Cars, Bungee, Logs falling down high water slides etc.

and not forgetting playing ps2 with my cousins 24/7. we managed to sweep through many games, and watched several hit movies through midnight. which made me think life suddenly became so much better, though for a few days to a week. well, i was wrong-again....

well,the only reason we were stuck at home watching movies is erm...the parents. our parents. we thought we could get away with a midnight movies at the cinema with the presence (and unanimous mandate) of our Bruneian cousins, but it was not to be. as expected. It's a miracle though that we got to play at the amusement park till 2 AM. yes 2AM! could have completed the rout with a Go-Kart race....cos the park closes at 3AM (whatt!!!)....and it was not to be again. luck wasn't simply on our side.

so there goes our dream of a beautiful (and temporary) life in Brunei. Cousins and Me, hopeful and united for a La Vita E Bella, but when the parents unite, well...u know what will happen.

To remember the good times we had in brunei, i thought this song would sum it all up. heard it in 50 FIRST DATES, a truly comical movie. song's pretty catchy with a soothing Hawaiian melody, so enjoy ;)

and im looking forward to Harry Potter and Goblet of Fire, War of the Worlds (starring TOm cruise) and the Da Vinci Code (starring tom hanks)

Backstreet Boys' Incomplete

2005-05-11T20:53:00.000+08:00

OMG...OMG...it's a very nice song. glad to noe many ppl out there think so too. =)

no, likin backstreet boys doesnt make me a pervert or wadeva u call BBoys fans la. i mean...come on...i like em becoz of their songs...reallie nice and their voices, though can say a bit rough, flow seamlessly and harmoniously with the catchy and slow soothing tunes. haha i don gif a damn if Carter's a playboy, or AJ (or the other guy?i forgot) was a drug-addict...like duh.

anyway will be putting up the song here in my blog later =)

INCOMPLETE

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can't find no rest
Where I'm going is anybody's guess

I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It's written on your face

You still wonder if we made a big mistake
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken

But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete
I don't mean to drag it on, but I can't seem to let you go
I don't wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

Incomplete

2005-05-06T21:57:00.000+08:00

whooaaa...i realised that my blog entries are the epitome of awfully grammatically incorrect works of english. i din bother correcting/looking for them la =)

anyway,
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT
the moment i saw this ' Never Gone- to be released June 14', there was this sudden eruption of happiness and anticipation. glad that the most celebrated pop band Backstreet Boys are cumin back with a bang ( ...and juz when we tot they're grown-up men and no longer the boys-band we knew).
A new single (Incomplete..cuming to radio soon).
A new album. More new songs (hopefully as phenomenal as previous hits like 'The One', 'Show Me the meaning of being lonely', 'I want it that way','Shape of my heart').
And a whole new beginning.
I CAN'T WAIT

things to do and remember list

2005-05-05T21:22:00.000+08:00

1. finish bio tutorial

2. Study for Bio Test!!!

3. finish Phy's Circular Motion

4. Maths Trigo !!!

5. aiya finish everything la

6. KAP tis sat for meeting...and zhao to

ORCHARD!!! (finally) to celeb ch's b-day

7. spam the rocket scientists at NASA

wif stupid qns for PI

8. formulate an ingenious way to

make my unfeasible PI err...feasible

9. salute VP wif effect

frm today onwards

10. remember wad ive written

for this list

11. remember to get these things

done

12. remember that ive actually

written a list in the 1st place

2005-05-04T23:05:00.000+08:00

ahhh. i have to stop myself from self-consoling and self-pitying. it will do me no gd. or maybe it doesnt haf any effect onme wadsoever. maybe its juz me being deprived of the loads of opportunities thrown at me in the past. head prefect blablabla.. the opportunities still pour on me, but somehow i unwittingly dodge them and now end up craving for another chance at going after em. like star programme, council etc.

on the other hand, its great to noe some frens making it to the exco....nt juz an exco..but the top posts in the Student's Council of NJC...wooot...congrats to (she-whom-i-dono-wan-to-haf-her-name-here-or-not). currently i myself is running for snt exco...but then ive a feelin i juz cant connect wif the ppl there....i find them peculiarly and particularly...err.....weird?? i not sure......juz cant feel the connection la

i juz realised that all tis while, all the CCAs i had been to were all super active ones. soccer, prefects, scouts. and obviously the transition to a sit-back-and-sometimes relax cca din go thru smoothly. hmmm...maybe ill look forward to joining another part-time cca...say Harmonica? totally new experience and fun..moreover when i already know how to play it...but im nt very sure whether i still remember hw to play it in the first place..hmmmm

and o ya. on the bus back home, noticed tis tall guy wif bushy hair. first guess was that he's someone i knew. so i changed my seat to the one next to him and true enough, looking down wearily with drooping eyelids, was Dave! the head prefect before me =) . had a fun time chatting abt the old days especially abt how the prefects are doing, personal experiences and *gasp* project work???!!! turns out that he's not running for any excos and was all-out for good grades. which is gd and bad.bad because his jc will nt gt a chance to discover his exception social and organisational skills. he's really gd, its nt always tat u cum across someone of his calibre.

yea...tat's it for now. gd luck all. and nitez ;)

haix?

2005-05-03T23:00:00.000+08:00

i read Ashley's blog and immediately, the feeling sets in. memories came rushing back into my mind, flushing off any mind-stickies of homework and things-to-do in its path. i felt hollow on the inside for a moment, nt knowing the reason behind it, then i realise im goin thru it...again.

1st 3 mths. short yet sweet. the day i met the current boys PLUS zakee,weekiat,pakming,kenneth,kianghow and (....) was the start of rollercoaster ride full of fun, endless talk-cocks and daring mischievous attempts...like...emm, ponning lectures. i din join em for the latter, but it was sure damn fun. they emanated this soothing aura wif their dirty yet witty (sounds ironic huh?) jokes and laughter and part of it is still left embedded in my heart. ahh reallie miss em a lot.

hmmm a few seconds more on the rewind button and there...pioneer sec. news ady out for the world to hear...yea i was the head. that was the time i was the 'eric' of the lot...the prefects and my bez/gd frens......endless fun...endless chats...tok-cocks...jokes...wateva fun things u could tink of. come to tink of it...i din reallie live it up to the 'discipline' area's expectations for the job...but im so very happy to have left a lasting impression on em...im so touched....im already crying.............on the inside that is...wad were u tinkin?!

ahhhh

2005-05-02T22:10:00.000+08:00

ahhhh...i din haf time to make the class blog

ahhhhh
i spend too much time on maths....esp. trigo

ahhhhh
i played soccer 3 days in a row till my leg hurts

ahhhhh
im dont noe how to do lots of qns.

ahhhhh
i wan another 3-day weekend break

ahhhhh

ok wad else haf i gt in mind?

ahhhhh

i cant tink.havin mental breakdwn.

oh ya...tried irc the other day. i dun realli mind the despo guys out there...but da dirty ones??! bleah. disgusting. made few frens. one in MJC and another juz graduated from NYJC. of course, precautions were taken. im nt goin to meet them in person anyway =p

and if you're reading this CheeHoe....HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! WISH U GOOD LUCK IN WADEVA U DO !!! do stay in touch =)

soccer!!!!!

2005-04-30T00:26:00.000+08:00

finally! wad the boys haf always been looking for during pe.

a nice game of soccer.

but today's nt really wad we had in mind. din expect gals-boys mixed game, but din regret playing that way either...coz it was pretty fun and funny. often, most people kicked the ball around aimlessly and it ended up bouncing off others like a pingpong, while most of the goals were, or had to be, slotted between the legs of the keepers. damn funny la. hua fei was the first victim; he dreamily let the ball pass through his legs, then it was joanne's turn. found out that the boys generally can play very well, and was pleasantly surprised to see that Tracy could bring the ball forward, so was Fadz, and i never had a chance to go pass Xin Yi the super tackler. hahaha..not bad...not bad at all...

i tink ive finally convinced my restless soul that NJ's the best place for me to socialise and learn in. i haf a great class S19 aka class of scandals and distinctions, wif great frens and classmates, so why not treasure every second spent here? after all, 1.5 years isnt that long. but im positive - and hoping- that the 1.5 years will be even beta and enriching than the 4 years in sec school.

and Thanks a lot for the May Day. which means i got one more day to complete my homework and MUG. and time to start work on s19's new blog design! any comments/ideas do tell me in ,y tagboard ok? thanks =)

futuristic error

2005-04-24T18:56:00.000+08:00

im less than prepared to find out whether ive blown part of my future down the drain soon . becoz of me tryin to run for council, ive failed to at least take up STaR programme as backup, and now i missed out on REAP. gosh, wad else did i miss, or rather, wad else will i miss next?
-_-'

day of beckoning

2005-04-19T17:54:00.000+08:00

i cant wait for tml! though i din show my excitement for tml. yea...it'll be interesting to see how the kinawa 5s and fadz will fare tml...how they will try to convince the college that they r the ones whom they shd vote for...and wad they will doing in front of the crowd. anyway, i will still vote for them lar...so they all haf earned one vote each already,congrats (= ...not reallie becoz they're my frenz and classmates...but i tink they hav wat it takes to be councillors of the skool...their enthusiasm, leadership skills and all.

i still tink some ppl out there are absolutely capable of becomin gd leaders but they din make it or din run at all. ( and mind u, im nt referrrin to myself...like duh...hmm in fact its a gd thing i din make it thru...i tink) ... and similarly i tink few ppl shouldnt have even ran for council for ... various reasons...( none of these ppl are my classmates, so no need to worry =)

and can we don have civics?

and homeworks are piling up fast. real fast. juz when i tot ive slashed the size of the mountain pile of homework yesterday....another pile came in...hahakz...i muz change my mindset....mugging is good...mugging is good....doin hw is gd...doin hw is....bleh...cant make it...
nvm, ill try another way.

slacking is bad.slacking is bad.slacking is bad.

haha sori ar...my mind is so lame.

and WTH. adobe wants to buy macromedia for 3plus billion US dollars. WTH!!!!
[ erm if u don noe wad im tokin about...haha...nvm.... -_-' ]

so yea. tml. gonna see the councillors-to-be in action. which will be a gd experience. and no lessons. an even beta experience.

but got civics and NAPFA test. haiz,tml wont be a gd day after all....

liek wad we ex-pioneers used to say... wah lao...sad life lar... = (

aiyaaaa....

2005-04-18T19:01:00.000+08:00

it's reallie stupid lar. i got so many posts saved as drafts and i was never in da rite mood to at least applied a small amount of force on the mouse on the 'publish' button. zzzzz. seeing all those posts now makes me feel like pushing the 'delete' button instead, which i blindingly did a sec ago. there goes the posts on the dance party on april's fool day. i swear i gona type it again one day....

the situation's now is so different from the first 3 mths. i haven't get along very well with the new boys, as i did with kenneth,zaki and co. i spend more time studying, but certainly not enough to earn the noble title of 'mugger', coz regardless of how u all see me, i will always be the one and only slacker. hahaha...aiya...easier to say...everything here is damn different la. i reallie missed the fun, lassez-faire and happy-go-lucky neigbourhood skool life in the 3 mths, and still do...for now and for a very long time.

tokin abt the old daes...i bumped into anshul at JP today! err..almost bumped into him head-on. hahaa, the response was instantaneous. tok cock session!! like the old days, we joked about anythin under the sun....abt NJ's 'army' uniform, robbing a friend's shop at JP, runnin away wif the popular member's card we borrowed from a fren's gf blablabla...hahaha...HAIZ...gd old days...

ok...i better go mug now. and im nt a mugger becoz of pseudopodia. i noe, i noe...its a chim word ryt...supposedly known only by muggers ryt?? hahah..im so totally nt a studious person lor. or maybe...arh nvm...

pseudopodia.

haha nice word.

eh found this on friendster. kind of a quiz. follow ur instincts very closely and you'll be pleasantly shocked. hahaa tis shd do the trick for makin up the lack of posts for quite some time....
(disclaimer: no forms of telepathy, or any kinds of mental powers of any sort, are practised in this quiz. neither did i approach the CIA to have a peek into ur private life =) )

TAKE 3 MINUTES TRY THIS - IT WILL FREAK YOU OUT. NO CHEATING !!!!

THIS GAME HAS A FUNNY / CREEPY OUTCOME. DO NOT READ AHEAD, JUST DO IT.

IT TAKES ABOUT 3 MINUTES - WORTH A TRY
1st. Get a PEN and PAPER
2nd. WHEN CHOOSING NAMES, MAKE SURE THEY ARE REAL PEOPLE THAT YOU ACTUALLY KNOW
3rd. GO WITH YOUR FIRST INSTINCTS !!!!! Very important for good results.
4th. SCROLL DOWN ONE LINE AT THE TIME DON`T READ AHEAD otherwise YOU WILL RUIN THE FUN.

1. On a blank sheet of paper, WRITE NUMBERS 1 to 11 in a COLUMN on the LEFT.

2. BESIDE the NUMBERS 1 & 2, WRITE DOWN ANY 2 NUMBERS YOU WANT. DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE NUMBER?

3. BESIDE the NUMBERS 3 & 7, WRITE DOWN THE NAMES OF TWO MEMBERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX. CAUTION: DO NOT LOOK AHEAD or IT WILL NOT TURN OUT RIGHT

4. WRITE ANYONES NAME (like FRIENDS or FAMILY...) next to 4, 5, & 6. DON`T CHEAT OR YOU`LL BE UPSET THAT YOU DID

5. WRITE down FOUR SONG TITLES in 8, 9, 10, & 11

6. Finally, MAKE A WISH.. ARE YOU READY?

HERE IS THE KEY TO THE GAME

1. THE NUMBER of PEOPLE YOU MUST TELL ABOUT THIS GAME is found in SPACE 2

2. THE PERSON IN SPACE 3 IS THE ONE YOU LOVE

3. THE PERSON YOU LIKE but your relationship CANNOT WORK is in SPACE 7

4. YOU CARE MOST about the PERSON you put in SPACE 4

5. THE PERSON YOU NAME IN NUMBER 5 IS THE ONE WHO KNOWS YOU VERY WELL.

6. THE PERSON YOU NAMED IN 6 IS THE YOUR LUCKY STAR

7. THE SONG IN 8 IS THE SONG THAT MATCHES WITH THE PERSON IN NUMBER 3

8. THE TITLE IN 9 IS THE SONG FOR THE PERSON IN 7

9. THE 10TH SPACE IS THE SONG THAT TELLS YOU MOST ABOUT YOUR MIND

10. AND 11 IS THE SONG TELLING HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT LIFE

11. NUMBER 1 IS YOUR LUCKY NUMBER

STRANGE HOW IT SEEMS TO WORK...

umm...

2005-03-31T18:38:00.000+08:00

probably the shortest posts ever..

coz havin bad headache now..

due to 'popular' demand
im goin to put more pics here
to enhance the s19 experience
=)
*
im gonna go for council (maybe)
n almost certainly goin for biomed sci quiz
*
maths is pretty hard
for me dat is
gotta work harder
*waking up from slumber*
*
seems like many noe abt my
'well-kept' secret
THANKS
'bryan's way'
to da brave ones who defeated my 'delicate' plan
but hey,
im not angry wif ya.
juz wanna say thanx.
reallie.
*

should i? or should i not?

2005-03-29T17:35:00.000+08:00

for my PSS comrades...

despite the many (good) things i heard abt my term

i still tink my job wasnt reallie dat accomplished

dat 'holistic development' idea wasnt meant to

achieve completion

so, naturally feelin regretful...

regret that camp wasnt dat super successful

regret that _____orialympics din work out

regret that webcomm lost its battle for survival

regret that someone had to go

regret that our time was cut very short

and regret that we din dig out as much fun as possible

out of dat short period of time

however, in retrospect, i have to thank you guys

for your utmost support

the experiences i had wif u all were simply so great

they're etched permanently in our hearts

i din regret, though,for being very nice wif u all (haha =p)

i swear i could be harsh

coz, like anyone else, my heart possesses dat elusive

and devilish hard metal core

however, after goin thru the journey wif u all,

after witnessing da best of da assortment of human nature

out of u guys

sweet memories had indeed soften

dat (erhem..miniature..haha) hard metal core

and transformed me into a beta human being

hahahhaha

u may ask

'since when sufyan haf been dat expressive huh?'

here's a lame answer

'i have always been expressive'

u should c my upcoming posts

wait till u c my testys on my ex-NJ frens

oh man
im on another crossroad
i dono whether to head for the council rm
*to be a councillor*
or the field
*to join soccer*
pls enlighten me
pls tag ur suggestions
below
(scroll down de whole site)
what do u tink?.
help.
me.
*

........

2005-03-27T09:39:00.000+08:00

i miss my NJ-3mths friends

and PSS comrades and prefects dearly

Goin to NJ is like migrating to the Swiss Alps

Very cold at first, but slowly i began to feel

the comforting warmth of camaraderie

with great frens and bros.

Even so, im still far from gettin used to the sudden climatic change

especially when it comes to the learning pace

it's pretty hard to explain y i'm feelin tis way

you have to get into my shoes to noe...

thought dat friendships forged in sec sch would last long

well, not until recently

i'm not sure y,

but i haf to kind-of pester them with silly questions like

'where are u all goin today? or tomorrow?or next week?'

'what u all do just now?'

felt so ps

and so left out.

haizzz.

hmmm im tryin to find some explanations for tis...

err divine intervention maybe?

but..seems like too far-fetched le..haha

linkin a friendship issue wif god

but hey who knows, He's making things easier

for me to undergo metamorphosis to becum a..

MUGGER.

the one word to haunt us all.

well dat's NJ life rite?eh wait..let's over-generalise a bit

tis is JC life.

erm..my case is a bit of an exception and sad one lar.

no super-mugging, no gd grades, no future

den i can join kenneth as the chief roadsweeper

and pakming in hsi ~i forgot the name~ club

hihi

2005-03-25T22:29:00.000+08:00

hi ppl...lots of new developments lately...err shd i say ammendments?

anywayz...05s19 pics!! though theres only 4 there...hahaa.

SCROLL DOWN and you'll find the TAGBOARD and music player. btw...the songs playg now is 'at the beginning'. so if u still find urself listening to the old song 'Always'...don worry...u don need to get the cotton buds...juz go to disk cleanup ( rite-click C: on My Computer) and delete the temporary internet files and voila!

so...enjoy!

05S19...ROCK ON!

05S19 - u rawks, always!

2005-03-25T21:30:00.000+08:00

haiz...i miss 05s19 so much i decided to put some of our pics here in my blog....erm its nt exactly wad i wanted it to look like...tis is juz a 'beta' version. anyway, my table will undoubtedly look like tis if i were to haf a paper clip (errr a broken one?) plus some small pics on it right now.

meessyyy :x

anyway...i hope u all like it. i tink its nice...in a way that the pics would trigger the 'memories-rush' in the empty crevices of our conscious mind...hence reminiscing the gd old daes.haizzz..i will add more soon. yea...the tagboard has been relocated too! so, keep those comments rushin in.

05S19....u rawks!!!

Orientation 2 : The phobia

2005-03-24T20:15:00.000+08:00

the first day of Orientation 2 was the sian-est day of my NJ life. totally sux reallie. no..no...its nt the orientation thingy itself that sux. in fact i tink the junior OGLs did a great job, considering dat it was their first day in operation. it all started when JC and gang zhao-ed off from skool at ard 1000 hrs while I waited for VIcknesh to cum to skool....and den,everythin went against me. was thinkin of zhao-ing off too but in the end...i had to stone at a corner, me left to suffer from the mental torture concocted from the insianity of being lonely, blurring headaches and fever, and burning questions that haunt my mind every now and then. questions that should hav been answered long ago, but coz of my increasing stupidity, inactivity,headaches, and a nose-dive in energy-enthusiasm levels..anything in life can go unanswered/unmanaged/stand-still. in tis case, im still torn...whether to join council and face the possibility of a 24-hr-management-crisis or to join soccer and face the energy-suckin leeches of rigorous physical training.thank god, Vicknesh was there to salvage a bit of the fun part of myself.

orh well, seems like now's nt the best time to decide whats gd for me. but i had been given 3 mths to do it...and now its time to haf fun for Orientation2...sooo i guess tis will be a dark time for me, coz the qns...argh..they juz keep cuming back, whispering, whimpering, beggin me to ans their pleas...hahaha i nt sure y...but theres a corner in mind dat would say (in the old wizard, dumbledore-like voice) 'in the darkness, answer them!' (sounds familiar? haha)

on dat nite, i had to suffer more from rising body temperature...tho' actually tried to ignore it..coz im pretty sure it would be gone...my body's used to tat kind of unstable unexpected and unexplainable temperature fluctuations...but argh it got worse till a point where i decided nt for orientation the next day.

the next day (today)...i woke up late, for obvious reasons. i din eat panadol tablets and return to the comfort of the bed. no, instead i bathed, wore uniform and rushed like hell to NJ. i must prove to myself that im still enthu...and have to find that long-lost 'enthusiastiv touch' ever since i stepped down _____________. met jaime and gang there and got ourselves inyo a nuanhua-dominated OG. argh should haf gone to a more recognisable OG...like those led by Huilin etc...anyway, it started out badly..real bad. nuanhua ppl don seem to even care abt the minority (us). but as the day progressed, camaraderie was finally forged during the crazy, yet fun-filled station games. haf to admit..they're better than the first :D

eh continue next time ok? NEXT: the remedy...final words. good. byes....

sentosa

2005-03-23T20:02:00.000+08:00

i was so enthu abt the sentosa trip.i would be meeting the pon-stars/long-lost frens like zakee,kianghow and weekiat. yay.but it din reallie turned out to be the case. in the end, only about 10 ppl made it to harbourfront mall, incl. pakming, kenneth, juncheng, yeeyong, joanne,jiaqi, yanchen and vicknesh.

sad case rite? only 10 out of like 23 ppl.

nah, din turned out to be that case either. it was plain fun. no frills. i enjoyed every single moment out of the journey to sentosa, reminiscing the fun pickup truck ride in marcello outing, and the pics-taking session at the Siloso beach entrance. then we played some 'anyhow' ball game while we, the gentlemen, waited for the ladies to change, and then the real fun began. they played monkey in the water (me and kenneth stoning in order NOT to get wet, but got wet anyway..) and den most of us basked in an hour of kayaking ( it was soo-fun haha) while eric,yeeyong,pakming and yanchen swam to a nearby island, after which they hopped into our kayaks to haf a fair share of e fun.

soccer next.beach soccer to be precise.weird finals between CHelsea ( CH for chinese high, represented by pakming), arsenal (kenneth's fave) and man utd (my fave). im nt too sure who won though. pls forgive my forgetfulness. :p and of course, we had one of de most fun monkey's ball game of all. only because there's an agreement behind it. one that made it so competitive and intense, it's simply the best.the agreement? losers would be taupoked by the winners! for once, it sparked a rivalry between us...u can see the spark in the eyes of my team's players when we were trailing in the scoreboard...only to win the game. Eric was taupoked (i mean it) by us...coz he was the one who suggested the 'loser's punishment' idea...(although i was realli the one who suggested taupok :D)'

den more pics-taking into the nite. we had a whole load of em at the class's bog site...courtesy of pakming's digicam. then sum of us zhao-ed off while the rest had possibly the last dinner together at harbourfront.

tat was probably one of the best outing i ever had - with the exception of some 4v1's and the marcello outing - and that we had as a class...of course it could haf been beta if all could make it...but oh well...i reallie hope we can meet again...next time...tho' i doubt there will be a day when this elusive 'next time' cums by....

Orientation2 next...plus my testys+wellwishes for the leavers aka my frens...veri gd frens

happy ending?

2005-03-16T20:52:00.000+08:00

hi. sori guys for the very late entry. for those of you who had been pestering me, spamming my msn with 'wheres ur entry???!!!', 'how cum u neva update ur blog one arh?','u lazy arh?'...err..THANKS a lot...i appreciate the heavy bombardment..ur perseverance will be handsomely rewarded =)

O levels aside,now's the post-Os season. now we're like 4 days into the 1-week break, and man... time passes by too quickly for my liking. i haven reallie done anything fruitful so far, and haven had any real fun either, and da 4 days had gone,juz like dat... haizzzz. i'm reallie hoping dat our s19 outing will be greatand memorable enuff to salvage dis sucky holidays of mine.

hmm talkin abt the outing, i guess it will be an official goodbye ceremony to be done in the form of fun-filled ball games ( and chit-chats). The 'dreamer' side of my mind would sometimes imagine some of us kinda mumbling ' u're leaving nj rite? that dat!' and throwin the ball unceremoniously at em in the games. though im convinced it won happen in a thousand yrs.hehe.

haiz, i knew its goin to happen. we had spent almost 3 mths together, relishing in talk-cock sessions and braving the not-so-successful attempts to mass-mug, me believing that this will go on and on...but as the days went by since the Os results, i'd gradually found my long-lost touch in discerning the 'reals' from the probables. and the unpredictables from the predictables.

I've admit i haf mixed feelings for those who are leaving. sad and happy. sad that they won't be staying...(tot zakee and weekiat will confirm/most x2 probably stay in nj like me but...) and happy for most of them who will be completing their migration to greener pastures very soon. wish em gd luck and all e best. and kudos to the 6-pointers ;)

zzz...im finding it hard to adhere my butt to the comp chair...and finding it even harder to blog nw..so i shall continue next time wif da 'testimonials' that I've promised u all and more on tis entry and da outing. cya at sentosa!!!

:'(

2005-03-12T12:49:00.000+08:00

before i begin the 2nd part of the O level saga instalment...juz wanna add firz dat i'll be making some changes to the layout. it will still be scarlet red all over, plus some pics of my class 05S19 and frenz, and some new (sad) songs :'( . u can guess wads cumin up in da next posts.....

'O' level saga : Episode I

2005-03-04T21:29:00.000+08:00

wahh..it's been quite a long time since i last i last blogged. i know...i know...many of u out there were like 'kaninna...i wasted my freakin time to visit ur blog, type dat stupid fire..stinger-wat-the-hell url and juz to c dat freaking old post.' hahah..dats me overrreacting, actually. anyway, wad else to say rite now other than the O lvls results release.

kinda scary, man.

I didnt do any assignments, let alone open a single page of da notes, during the weekend prior to the results day.
I went to school feelin kinda weird in the semi-empty buses since the RJ and HC ppl haf their day off.
In the mornin during assembly, i was wondering wat in the world was Mrs Cheng thinkin for forcing us to stay in NJ all the way till 1140, juz a freaking 2 odd hrs before the release, juz to cover up that CIVICS lesson rather than juz let us relax and go thru the whole pre-results process in peace.
Everyone was like so rowdy and restless during civics lesson that Mr Chew had to let us play bridge, so we got to relax during Civics anyway.
On the way back to PSS, i was abt to get on the bus only to be stumped by the fact that my EZ-Link had -$0.04....and that there were no coins in the wallet.
I reached PSS, only to make a trip back home to get some stupid doucmentations.
And finally, i got a deserved rest in the hall 30 secs before 2pm.

Somehow, I didn't feel as tensed as I'd expected. I chatted wif anshul and then slept throughout the speech/talk by principal and then...'Sufyan!' I jolted up and looked around ard like a blur sotong la. tot the principal caught me dozzing off.turned out that i was destined to b the first to receive my result slip.

So i juz walk to the front la.like nuttin had happened. took the slip. shook hand wif Mrs Seah. shook hand with Mr Tan. saw the slip. eyes suddenly blurred. rubbed eyes. took a look at slip again. wth. still blur. focused eye again. WTH. i got 9.

L1R5: English A1
C.Humans A1
E.Maths A1
Bio A2
Chem A2
Phy A2

was quite sad lar. i aimed for a 8 or 7 and at least 8 distinctions (at least can raise my skool's name here in JW) but went short of 1 : i got a 9 and 7 distinctions (not 8 sori!). im actually bewildered la. i gt A2s for my supposedly best subjects, which are the 3 sciences, and MT but on a gd note,i did successfully convert the A2/B3s i usually get for English/C.Human/E.maths to A1s. haizzzzz. part II cuming up.

back to da gd old times

2005-02-19T19:10:00.000+08:00

sometimes, it feels good reminiscing the gd old times. and even beta if we gt to meet those ppl who made the gd old memories stuck foreva in a deservedly special place in our heads.

and tat means meeting the likes of cheehoe the talk-cock and maths genius, colin the talk-cock 'princess' (haha! hes a boy btw), kaixu the AV guy and anshul the talk-cock king. plus a few of the gals with their ever-overwhelming desire to tease ppl, laugh and talk-cock (again..)

first stop was jurong point, where we tried to find anything that resembles Piglet from Winnie the Pooh cartoon, but to no avail. so, we set off to IMM and found one that deserved to be stuffed into a nicely-pakaged plastic wrapper for nuanpei, who's celebrating her b'day todae.

den we meet her at sajc, where we had plenty of fun from all those games at the sajc fair. and not forgetting the ice-creams, chocolates and nasi lemaks that we savoured, the talk-cocks we had wherever we go, the childish game we played where we had to pul each others' bag down to the legs ( and i'd beaten proven sajc champ anshul :p : "i got beaten by an idiot from nj!"he exclaimed ). we witnessed and rejoiced when the principal of sa was thrown into a barrel of water after their donation collection peaked 1000 bugs. and finally nt forgetting how we got lost in the crowd tryin to get a closer look of Stephanie Sun who happened to be there...all because she's shorter than most ppl in the crowd :D .

den came the moment when we presented nuanpei with the plastic and paper bag-ful of presents, tripled by the arrival of other gals later. in the end, the 4 boys and me had to carry the bags of presents while the b'day gal carry...no...hold,rather, a floating winnie the pooh balloon. hahahaa...so much for being the gentlemen :p.

and the journey ended abruptly for me when we reached the commonwealth mrt. i had to cum back home (here i amnow) while the others are eating their dinner rite now at Bugis, after which they will be enjoying themselves at nuanpei's b'day party. and yes, this is sian. as always.

HAIZ.

anyway...the new song's playg in this blog is 'Always' by Blink 182. somehow the quality kinda sux. but its still hear-able though.haha. erm its kinda weird la. for dis particular song i've tried compressing it to a decent quality for soo long but had to stop coz gt tis 'chau ta' smell emanating from the cpu :p Enjoy!

hiii

2005-02-17T22:03:00.000+08:00

hii blog. hii ppl.

haiz im finding myself blogging even less consistently with every passing week. and my english is gettin worse and weirder with every new post. so, im still in search of a time when my mind is in a super relaxed state, so....

anyway, i've missed quite a lot lately on some interestg happenings in nj. im still waiting for the rite time to ditch out all those things in ma head into ma blog...so do hope tat i can find that time fast.

among those things...Valentine's day! lots of chocolates and stuff ;) ...ms sim storming out of class coz we're too noisy?!?!?!! and of course more jokes,laughter,fun,bball,soccer and supposedly-mugging sessions dat became laughter sessions - again.

ok gota mug bio. de most intriguing,weird,troublesome,tedious,difficult,elaborated,headache-inducing,confusion-makin,notes-consuming,ink-finishing,time-consuming,energy-eating,eyes-straining,head-spinning and hand-aching subject. which also happens to be my fave subject :) . and mind u i hate chewy fructose!!!!!!!!! 1

hmmm...

2005-02-16T22:44:00.000+08:00

during civic class, like anyone else, i was like 'is there anything else better to do than this crappy only-to-waste-precious-time decision making sessions?'. my heart wouldn't stop by this thought til wad happen today.

I didn't know there's so much to think about. so many things currently happening simultaneously in life.which means more things runnin up in da head and more decision-making. which ultimately means...more headaches.

and somehow... some of the old 'forget-about-it' qns keep cuming back....as if the qns themselves knew its time for me to give them another chance to be reconsidered.
and i hate reconsideration. sure takes a great deal of time and energy. and the daunting fear that the decisions we make would not be successful - or worse, put yourself in deep shyt..err i mean trouble - is soo real. gd thing theres something called logic and 'mature-thinking'. and thank god they still work for me though im a (still) mentally-stable person losing his grips on simple logic.

for example, i squashed a chance to get a headstart to the A*star programme with a trip to this prestigious competition with YuTian. and its on Fri! i will get to miss BIO. yes...BIO. no chew. no fructose. and as such (haha GP- wrong usage!) no CHEWing of FRUCTOSE! but *slap hard on the head* i declined the offer. in the name of studies. *now knocking head on wall* im so stupid...but maybe ponning skool for an upper-edge in the A*star thingy at the expense of the last course of 3-mths JC syllabus is even more costly? or crazy? im not too sure. but i don wan to miss anything.and im already quite lagging behind now. so tat's my decision. final decision. i must not mull over this ever. again.

ok time for me to make another decision. i wanna type more...but its way past bedtime. lets call it a day shall we? gotta haf enough rest for tml's skool, outing and blogging! cya :D

wad da...

2005-02-12T17:30:00.000+08:00

ok..finally...im back here...

yesterday went to jo's hse for my old class's gathering. of course, as anticipated, came the 'thing' tat i hated so much. its nuttin much , really, but CAN YOU ALL STOP LINKING ME WITH HER?!!?! wad da *toot*...wahlao..

ahhh forget abt wastg time typin da stupid 2 stars and da stupid 'toot' ...and pressing tat equally stupid 'BOLD' button.
next time..i'll juz say..

WAD DA HELL..or maybe worse than that? :P

anyway, they all play da add-to-21 card game ( wad issit called ar?). of course i didnt lar. guai mah. den followed by a talk-cock and photographing session. as usual. hahaa.
somehow...this gatherg wasnt as exciting and bubbly as i'd expected...maybe becoz some of us left for esplanade...while the rest of us went jp to catch Seoul Raider.
AND I DIDNT GET TO CATCH TAT MOVIE WIF 'EM !! heard tat it's gd. funny. wah lao. sad lar. tis is insianity lor.

and today's no different. so sian. nuttin to do. except to eat, watch cartoon, on comp, blog-hop and...and..argh...mug. tis sux man. dono y. hand feel very pain when flipping thru the notes. hahaha. tok abt goin against ur own mind's will. maybe....i'd been following my mind's gentle and calming requests for extra resting hours arrr....which equates to more sleeping and procrastinatg :D

hmmm..wad else to say...hhmm..ok im listening to 2 nice songs.
Blurry by Puddle of Mudd ( got 2 Ds)
Here Without You by 3 Doors Down.
They're reallie nice. maybe i'll juz put tis songs here later. instead of 'Always' as i've promised in da previous post. ok gtg. bye.

blog updates...not the posts..it's da blog itself

2005-02-11T20:45:00.000+08:00

yep...nono im still nt touchg on today's happening's yet..juz wanna say im gonna be changing the blog's music to Always by Blink 182 soon. may sound a bit too noisy at first but sooner or later u'll learn to appreciate the song. its reallie a cool song ..reallie exudes the emotion of lurve.. ok cya

to b continued...

2005-02-11T19:58:00.000+08:00

heh...sorry ppl...hmm i shall continue from my previous post! lets start back from the last sentence....

TO BE CONTINUED...a group of more than 10 ppl is barging into my house rite now...yelp. Yea..while u guys went visitg for CNY,it's me who got visited. haha..apparently, CNY also falls on the New Yr of the muslim calender...so as usual,perfect time for a famiy gatherg. umm..not juz my family. the whole, one big famly from my mom's side. quite fun. got to play with the toddlers, talk cock with same-aged cousins and share experiences, perspectives (whoa..talking abt maturity..) with the older ones. cool!

anyway...back to the CNY celebrations.

after that NJC Idol, my class relaxed one corner and had tat mixing-up ritual of the yu-sheng...( issit? erm sori la its either my spelling's wrong or i got short-term memory)..den i quickly rushed off with Wee Kiat..initial plans included going back to pioneer...but i nearly forgot abt the first thing which was of highest priority on my agenda...

..buy present for my mom's b'day! hmmm not goin to elaborate though on how i shop etc. honestly, when it comes to talking abt shopping, my mind juz goes blank. anyway. i bought her this cute vase with roses, i tink, plus 2 melanine ware...(:

hmm more of today's happenings cuming up later. gota eat first, bye!

how da CNY eve turns out to be in NJC...

2005-02-08T22:25:00.000+08:00

another day at njc!! ~with a bit of a difference....everyone's wearing casual clothes...yea man cool ;) ...and after assembly, we have to 'break into' our own classroom CA5 to have our usual class gatherg. even more kewl!! i got to get thru' da class window ( hahaha Hui Lin cant get in!) to open the door from the inside...and there we go...slackg like nuttins happenin in tis world until a group of Lignum ppl -i tink- approached CA5...that's when we realised the treasure hunt game had started!! so cool...we were like so late. me,huilin,wee kiat and jia qi. hahaha. but actually not our fault lar. somehow there was a communication breakdown during assembly. anyhow we did complete an objective, which was to find our already-in-the-game housemates with Zhi Wei's help....only to discover that they had already-finished-the-game! we did contribute though during our last-ditch crapping session with the judges on our red-cross cum civil defence diagram/illustration/model/wateva u wanna call it. nicee.

den there was the calligraphy thingy at (i forgot the place's name) where yan chen and gang were portrayin their calligraphy skills. it was truly a cool showcase of the ppl's artistic and ,of course, calligraphic skills. and of course we had the NJ Idol competition at the (omg wats the assembly place again??)...oh yah..parade square. 2 guys and 2 gals ran for the title. was surprised that guitar man Adi ,who sang his own rendition of Richard Marx 'Now and Forever', lost to (i forgot tis guy's name argh blame stm!!) who mimicked Michael Buble with 'Sway'.

TO BE CONTINUED...a group of more than 10 ppl is barging into my house rite now...yelp

oh yah!!!

2005-02-07T21:11:00.000+08:00

i forgot!! one more thing to say. theres a kewl music player below. looks like a 3-cd player :D ( Currently playing: Only One By Yellowcard). haf to wait a while for it to load :P....and one more thing! scroll down the right side of the blog and u'll see my new TAG-BOARD!! do leave me msgs ok??? ;)

the happie (and dull) daes [2nd edition]

2005-02-07T19:05:00.000+08:00

**man i didn't noe there's sooooo many grammar mistakes in here....ahh...here's my edited version..don wan any ppl out there to pick up my mistakes for their eng/GP :p

ahhh...there's so much thing that i wanna write here...but im tryin to forget em all...umm to be precise,rather.. i've already forgotten about em! haha :D e.g. me being 'scolded' by that chew et cetra et cetra.

wat's important is that i've gotta start a 'new life' here...at least i haf another chance on lunar new yr to carry out my new 'new yr resolutions' haha :P

and wad's beta to usher in the new yr celebration than to haf an equally nice, cheerful, happie, exciting and fun-filled dae. we had more tock cock sessions as usual. tis time with more twists and turns at the library. with the guys ard, a mugging session will nvr be a mugging session. haha.

and we had only the 2nd captain's ball game for p.e. pretty fun. it's gd to play games with the class rather than juz the verbal jokes we had these days. and we lost.the gals in other team are absolutely superb lor. they went on a rampage thru' our defense and were triumphant over our statue-of-hope Vicknesh once in a while...and yet they still thrashed us. hahhaa.

but happie daes are not always the best days lor. apparently, many are damn upset over some things, dampening the mood in class. actually the sad ones include me. but i've tried my best to look normal. haiz...i noe how they feel. no matter how much fun we haf, it's never enough to erase the pain our heart is goin thru'.

i haf to admit...we haf been witnessing bad luck stroking our lives these days. err...at least some of us. most prominent in mine and kenneth's. and few more whom i don wanna mention for certain reasons. hope all these will end soon. and im sure we will stand up to face da challenges ahead with boldness and determinaton. which is wat i'm trying to do.

hmm cant wait for tml. wat shld i wear. wat shd i wear. i only haf a thing in my head. can wear any clothes. appropriate ones. and muz haf that badge. wat shd i wear? wat shd i wear? jersey? t-shirt? jeans? shirt? shorts? socks? shoes? sandals?....??? (u continue for me). argh...and the civic class on decison-making is not helping me either. haha.

hmm..one more thing. can anyone recommend me any nice new/old songs. i don noe y everyone's gettin crazy abt 'accidentally in luv' ( i noe y now haha) but sorry ppl, i've already listened to it soo many times until i...( i cant tink of more gentler polite words lei ). my play count in windows media player for that song is like more than 200. well over than 200 actually. maybe hundreds more. haha :P

OKOK. cya all later. me signing off.

biosubjectus macrophobias

2005-02-01T21:41:00.000+08:00

everyone knows me and kenneth are destined,literally, to be called up in Bio lesson by that Mrs Chew. and me and kenneth both think we can change that by switching places from our 'relax-one-corner' coordinates to some place in the centre. so we carry out a simple plan. to move! simple yet effective. until juz now....

guess who she called? ME. of all the people. ME. i tink she only have 2 faces stuck in her memory. AND she literally search for that 2 familiar faces in the register and voila! we were victimised again.and again.and again. for the rest of the year? probably.

and she got my name wrong! but it is nice of her to tink me as a veri fun person. (sufyan = so-fun) :) at least it did enlighten me from the foiled plan.

i find that this whole was reallie funny. the failed plan, albeit its absurd simplicity, brought laughter from the back row of boys and the so-fun name thingy choked the front people. wat a nice combi of funny 'incidences'.

i was lucky though. kenneth haf to present to the class the difference between the alpha-beta glucose molecules for abt 5 mins!!! argh.i can feel his pain.

ahhhh....Y US? Y NOT...erm...the front row people?? haiz. maybe you people are rite. she "saw the bio potential in me and kenneth and wanted to bring the best out of us".awww...we must b feelin sooo lucky! hahaha...

so today's bottomline? i declare today as the first day i suffer from a mental disorder called biosubjectus macrophobias, which also means (or can be transposed as) 'excessive fear of the subject on living science'

OKOK...im veri upset now. not because of the failed mission today. many things are simply not going the way i wanted them to be. far too many things. more cumin up...

bad week...very bad...

2005-01-28T23:30:00.000+08:00

words cant describe this tormentous week. but i'll try to do it anyway.

4 nites of torture almost brought me to the brink of self-destruction. nah...its not homework, not nightmares. but the worst thing imaginable - sleeplessness. HAIZ. i cant sleep for like 10 plus hours in total. its probably one of the worst things one can experience in a lifetime. here's wat happen: ur brain is tired,beckons ur eyes to close...ur eyes obediently obey...but somehow for god-who-noes-wat reasons, ur brain itself chooses to stay awake...as if the moon shines as bright as the sun...

and to pay up the 'sleeping debt' asap to regain full consciousness, i slept in class :) . no choice. really. but certainly not a wise thing to do.

i was caught in the act by mr chew aka ju-on. eyes open, but mind soundly asleep to a self-hummed version of Blink 182's Always. should look obvious to a teacher who'd experience with students dozing off in class for years. and my ploy to get away from writing the maths expansion on the board by pretending i'm not sure what he juz taught ( coz i was tinkin -confused- wth are there in the long eqn ) was foiled. and the next thing that happened not only jolted me from half-consciousness, but also knocked me hard on the head.

he guessed that i haven't read the lecture notes ( which i had!) and mentioned something abt the importance of time management becoz we may haf ccas etc...indirectly referring to me. i was so broken-hearted u noe. first weeks and i've made a bad impression of myself in front of my own civics/maths tutor. all becoz of sleeplessness. my mind was like protesting.. ' hey im juz 16 and im already findin it hard to have sum peaceful sleep at nite'

and i was so embarrassed. malu. and not forgettin the power^2 i missed out for every term in the expansion. arh. prolonged mental torture.

but im kinda used to it. long story. will b writing more soon. too tired now la. still got the sleeping debt remember?

sleeping and bio..all in a day...

2005-01-24T22:40:00.000+08:00

YAY. im still awake. now is like 10.40 pm and im still awake. but whats's the point. i'm sleepy...

anyway, i forgot one very important, not-to-be-missed entry. i miss mdm tham's bio lessons. dearly. yes. very true. her lessons may be boring at times but gd enough to get the facts into my head. though she nags a lot...but she has our interests best at heart...no matter how much we disapprove of her way of teaching..she still tried her best at nurturing the bio person in all of us....

but everything's gona change in njc...

mrs chew. no,no im not referring to any chews in PSS. not ms chew b.s.

shes my new bio teacher :) that was the first day...now? shes so not my bio teacher. she's so boring. dats not too bad eh?. heres the hammer..shes super sarcastic. and nags a lot too. and her sarcasm hit me - and everyone- like a boulder on the head, rather than a hammer. I informed her that my stage scale apparently does not have any scale printed on it. Guess what she say? " are you a magician or wat?" "this was brought in from england! how can that be"...something along that line. it happened to the others also. "college so boring?" "i keep seeing people opening their mouths.." .. i have absolutely no comments.

seems like the olden days are repeatin themselves. rumours of me and another gerl are sprouting. its actually of course nt true la...duh. i nvr even spoke to that gerl. they like making things up.hahahahah...i don mind. really. but haiz, its bringing back old memories that i don't want to recall. so that's another thing altogether................

nvm. no matter what happens. i will still like bio. its my dream to get into the medical course ;) so gota uphold the jc's motto. scholarship with creativity. eh. im not sure abt the creativity part.hahahahha :)

very, very tired...

2005-01-24T19:10:00.000+08:00

man...i cant believe hw bad my fitness is rite now. i ran only 2 rounds ard the track, ran many rounds of shuttle run and did push-ups....and i felt like passing out anytime. must have forgotten it would be suicide, coz i havent had enough sleep and rest after a week of strenuous exercise and soccer.

the last thing i would do is to sleep early to repay my sleepin debts. i hate to sleep. really. not that i wont sleep - that will be suicide - but i will sleep as late as possible.alap.

i will spend the nite finishing Da Vinci Code and mugging. its the time when ur mind becums calm after a day of mental torture and escapes the grips of thoughts that only appear in daylight. But not today...i still have to do bio and gp.maybe physics. haiz.

but i still hate to sleep early !!! wah lao...

eh. at last i got a letter from my angel. :) it's from a guy though. it's not that im dissapointed or something like that but finally i have someone to talk to via letters. haha haven been doin so for a long time. and the letter sounds cool too. "never trust anyone other than yourself". cool. sounds like an advice from yoda from star wars. and its the same famous quote me and my fren(s) used to say back at sec sch. and i haf tis weird feeling it will remain in us as a 'philosophy' for life........long story....

eh i still hate. to sleep. early. i wan. to read. books. but. when i see. my time table. tml got pe and cca. no choice. have to sleep early. ahhh. nvm. dont noe y im complaining abt tis in da first place. haha ;p

finally...

2005-01-23T08:48:00.000+08:00

...a new blog. new home. new look. everything's new.
tink my old blog looks better...here it is...but spendin hours
juz to update it fortnitely is suicide.so i switched to blogger ;)

feel like starting my blog for '05 with my experience in njc
..rawks totally...but that's also suicide. i still haven finish my homework
and still got lots of stuff to catch up with. i've basically already
committed suicide yesterday..spending the whole day surfin'
and reading the Da Vinci Code and finally, do homework at late nite...which
is suicide. every second i spend typin the words i-n t-h-i-s
b-l-o-g r-i-t-e n-o-w is indeed suicidal.

Anyway, as i'm committin suicide again now, do check out
the 'cd player' at da bottom of the page. I spent suicidal hours
searching for one and modifyin it.and makin this blog.
thanks to someone called Muhd Ali for programming da
player and another guy for creating tis blog's layout.

3 songs to choose from!
only the first is a real song- Only One by Yellowcard. Enjoy!

Here's the lyrics!

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up) I just want to tell you so you know

CHORUS:
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one

I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

CHORUS

I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

CHORUS
My only one...My only one...My only one
You are my only, my only one

2004-12-11T10:04:00.000+08:00

Saturday, 11 December 2004, 10.04pm

Been quite a long time since i've written anything for my blog. Been busy largely because of my work. I'm doin all those admin stuff and doin a bit of work on my own...juz recently went to some houses to repair haywired comps. Feelin quite tired from all these work (mainly coz of the walkin up and down the west of S'pore) but i tink it'd been really fruitful. Erm..it's not about the money lar moneyface :p...it's about the experience...learned a lot of new stuff though i thought i already know quite a lot on computers...lyk wat they say...learning never ends :)

SO..yesterday was a gd day for me...Time to chill out and relax!! Well, it was the first time in eons that i stepped foot on the city area..now i know how columbus felt when he stepped foot on America. Nice invigorating feelin man...it's like im running (actually walkin rather) wild in a shoppin heaven..for once i didnt noe y i lyk shopping...went straight to tis smaller mph outlet to check out the bestsellers...got my hands on one and was abt to approach the counter when i realised i need the cash on sumthing else...how disappointin..missed out on a 20discount :(Den, me and my scout frenz went to the Esplanade,then eat, drink ,talk cock (duh) and had fun along the way through marina square and citylink mall en route to city hall mrt. Plans for late nite cinema was cancelled..haiz...apparently, (home) rules and regulations still applies.

ALong the way home, heavy rain started batterin the mrt we're in..the groan was audible. and the lightning display was simply awesome and deafening...simply better than the already-magnificent city-skyline as seen from roof of the Esplanade.Had to joined a long queue of anxious and panicked-looking people at giordano to grab an umbrella for half price with Chong Tat..but still reached home afresh from a (almost) cold bath...hahakz.

Now Im still tired. not really tired from yesterday. but rather from the short soccer game i played juz now. My cousin came here from woodlands..so wouldnt want to miss the chance to play with him...he never fails to entertain me with his sublime skills...simply nice...as usual i had a quiet game as i contented myself with lots of team-friendly passes...enjoyed the game thoroughly though...so thats abt it. cant tink after watching the s'pore idol finals encore telecast.nice to see taufik crowned s'pore idol.happy for sly too.

2004-12-04T10:30:00.000+08:00

I will now start by proclaiming 'today's another boring day' as my new opening sentence. Yes, yesterday was a boring day. After the friday prayers, i went to jp to check out some new books at popular bookstore and found myself gazing at the latest cds- and gaping at their price tags. wahhh.. how i wish i'm working now...btw, no new exciting books sold now, except the one on 'conspiracy theories' on the Bush administration. sounds interesting.

Then i checked out the pc games section with my friends whom i met along the way from to jp. we were kinda excited to c all the new releases (fifa 2005,total club manager 2005,half-life 2 etc) but found ourselves to be staring into abyss by the again all-powerful price tag.*sigh* Ok enough said about high prices.I was like dizzy and went straight back home.

Then in the afternoon, I went to the park for a sweet long-awaited reunion with my neighbours - to play soccer of course! ever since feb, i've never really gone down to play with em. It's like tearing off a huge chunk off my timetable under the weekends column. was feelin' a bit torn too coz i've beeen playing with 'em intensively on weekends since we're in primary skool (around primary 4). so we've been playin for 7 years together already.Boy, time passes by so fast...

But soon, I found myself at the wrong end. While I was busily preparing for the Os, my friends have been improving tremendously in their soccer abilities, whereas my stamina is deteriorating and my level of skills is somewhat stagnant. Haiz...i was condemned to be keeper for the whole 2 hours...i gave way to my neighbours to play upfront since they deservedly played well... luckily i did pretty well though for my own satisfaction...saved my team on countless of times against a team of oversized secondary students-players.
which explains why im still tired though i've exceeded my wake-up time. soccer is tiring but the satisfying feeling is just great.dono how to explain it.ok...later i'm goin to my cousin's b'day party.as I've said in the previous entry, Taufik Batisah is coming too (hopefully).. yay! haha...i will update u on that one ;)

2004-12-02T16:35:00.000+08:00

Woke up this morning with this victorious feeling...yes! Taufik is SIngapore's first idol. I think he's way better in vocal ability and his persona in the eyes of the people is improving. Wish him all the best for his upcoming album on 17 dec and his run for the coveted World Idol, and the same goes for Sly.

Yesterday was fun, but only for a few hours :( Me,anshul,ch and colin went to je (yet again) to play badminton for about 1.5 hours and then sit back at KFC to have zinger and lots of cheese fries and our usual talk-cock session. Obsession with gals was their main topic.. haha...I was laughing to whatever they were saying. And now, my right hand is aching..oh well, looks like i'm not used to badminton....

Today turns out to be another boring day.I'm getting sick cos i just wont stop playing badminton. Just now, my prefects friends visit my house for hari raya and we had a good laugh for like two hours. After that, boredom strikes back.Haiz, don't really know what job to do. Working at my uncle's place is not really enough for me. I want to do my own things..and one of em is to try out my old business again. Not workin right for now...have to start from scratch in everything from finding customers to making fresh design templates. hard work is really everything in business.

SOmehow now I'm a bit enlightened to hear (don't know true or not) that the sinagpore idol i was talking about is coming to my cousin's birthday party. turns out that hes my cuzzin's husband's young brother. does that sound too distant to u? hhaha anyway...cant wait to meet him.so look out for a pic of me and him soon :)

gtg now...another quote from god-who-knows-where>>
A good friend can tell you what is the matter with you in a minute. He may not seem such a good friend after telling.

2004-12-01T08:49:00.000+08:00

On Monday, kx,anshul,ch,colin and I caught The Incredibles at the West Mall Eng Wah Cineplex. The movie and cinema are equally incredible. Heard that they have upgraded the cinema to be digitally-enhanced, and the improvements are really obvious. The screen no longer has 'dots',the picture looked solid and clear. All for the same price of $6.50. But, soon all cinemas here gonna be upgraded anyway.SO just have to wait. It's goin to be a new experience.The movie is almost perfect. The graphics are stunning, storyline is interesting, always hitting us with action-packed scenes and never giving us a chance to take a look off the screen. And it's very funny too.Best animated movie since Finding Nemo. Like what the small kid on the bicycle has said, the movie's 'wicked'ly cool!
My hands gettin tired now. OK..there's Singapore Idol in less than 12 hours. Can't wait to witness the biggest showdown since any Idols show. And guess who I'm rooting for? .......Can't get then answer? OK,lemme give you a hint. He's a guy...........Still can't get it? aiya,i stop the crap now. Its not Sly, I'm supporting Taufik. Let me lay out the reasons why I'm supporting him. First of all, he got the voice and voice control.He can sing most genres pretty well, pop to rnb, and at least tried to attempt different songs with diverse vocal ranges, and did them pretty well. Like Sly, he's got the style too. So, he's quite versatile. He has been improving ever since auditions, and for now, the only way he can go is up and he will get better i think. I not too sure, but Sly range and vocal ability is limited to a cretain level. Yes he can sing pop too BUT not all pop songs.And when he sing any songs, there's still that rock essence in his voice. ( If u're a fan of Sly, u can flame me below). Anyway, wish them all the best, They're already champs in our eyes.
OK..I've written too much already. Before I go..heres a quote...
Mistakes are a part of being human. Appreciate your mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way. Unless it's a fatal mistake, which, well,at least, others can learn from.
Haha :)